[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, November 16, 2002]

blogger
i have loyal fans to my blogrer. they are erin and jane. they are blogger junkies. i only update when they complain i missed a day. i update everyday. yeah im a wierdo like that but its all good.anyway. today was such a blah day. it rained and rained and rained. i didnt get to run cuz it was raining and i dont like being wet unless im naked. i know that didnt sound right but its the truth. i had to watch kyle and ryan smith today. when jimmy came home we had a huge war with beanie babies. it was out of control. i own war. i actually have alot of thoughts that i want to write down but they can wait untill tomorrow. im to happy right now. and they are very negative. tomorrow im gunna go eat pizza with erin untill we explode. its gunna be great. i love erin. shes addicted to my webpage. poor girl. i tried to talk to jenny from down the shore but she gave me a fake screen name :-( i thought we were friends but i guess not. i e-mailed her so i hope she gave me the right e-mail. oh well. till tomorrow my friend.

your graceful, your grace falls
down around me in my eyes
your lovely, your love leaves
so easily in my eyes

----me
[Posted by Stephen] at 11:21 PM

booger,
its friday, thank god. it was such a long day. my mom made me get a haircut. blah. i liked my hair all long and out of control, it was cozyer that way. i went to see this play Fools with Christine at warwick HS. i saw brianne and john and ruta there. it was wierd, i havent seen brianne in so long, and shes still brianne but shes so different. john is john and hes as tall as me which is unnerving. and ruta is ruta. i miss her. i didnt get to see her last year anyway, and i dont see her this year either. its sad. i saw katie j too, which was very awkward, cuz i nver have anything to say to her anymore. shes such a good person but around ashley tanzosh shes really different and i dont like it. i just dont like ashley, i get bad vibes off of her. shes so fake and manipulative, and shes one of the girls who walks around saying shes hott shit, not like im saying she is or isnt but it bothers me that she is like that. alot of people are like that and i hate it. people need to realize that theres no need to be better than anyone else, you dont have to be better than them for them to accept you, you just have to be yourself. if your naturally better props to you, but if your not dont try to be so hard you lose everything you are. its so not worth it. i dont know what im going to do. im a total nerd, ive read over 200 comic books in the past few days and i still have like 5000 more to go. tis a dirty job but someones gotta do it. not saying i dont enjoy it.

still in love,
----me
[Posted by Stephen] at 11:38 PM

BLOGGER!!!
yooo today was the meeting for winter track to start. mrs kelly listed about 5 ways for me to get kicked off the team before i stepped into the room. joy. shes a troll and i hate her. tomorrow my mom is making me get a haircut. dammit. i like my hair. its cozy :-) me and erin are going to hit up florida for all its pizza. watch out. i had to write this stupid report on some stupid indian guy. i have gandhi. the stupid bastard is impossible to find information about. grumble. steves love update---yep still in love. i had lunch with amy today and i almost choked and died on one of her mutant huge grapes. greg thinks im trying to steal her. i think im just trying to have a best friend :-) and i also think greg smells like a moose. no offence to greg tho. mooses are cool. i wanna go see harry potter this weekend. i also want to get my new computer this weekend. good luck steve, your not doing either. sad ending. the end.

-----me
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:12 PM

to the blogger of today...
to all my loyal fans....im sorry i missed a day yesterday. i had to stay after school for drama club so i didnt get home till liike 7:00 pm standard eastern time. i know thats like 4:00 for you in southern cali but your going to just have to deal. so i had drama last night and it was great. i really like my part i nthe play. for those of you just joining us, i got the role of Phil Maker, the first attempted murder victim of the show. tim told me its going to be a dinner theatre. yay that means if im bad people can throw food at me. ive always wanted to get in a food fight in the middle of a play. on a side note, im listening to piano man by billy joel right now. god i love that song. it makes me almost cry, a.k.a. feel sad. im in the process of making allisons cd. she listens to some shitty punk ill tell you that. god i love shitty punk. no, i refuse to call it punk anymore because people assosiate it with avril. so its either crappy punk rock or shitty punk bands or whatever. NOT AVRIL you posers. i got my report card today, so just to gloat...and bitch and moan and complain here are my grades for the first quarter of my sophomore year---math 86 spanish 93 global 88 health 83 earth science 100 english 94 and religion 74. yeah you read it right i got a 100 in earth science ^_^ actually it was a 103.9 but they can only give you up to 100. not like im a loser or anything but i reeeally want those 3.9 points, it'll at least even out my religion grade.i told my mom that if she takes me outta burke for my religion grade i would run away to alaska, and im not even joking. if i ever have to go to seward, i will seriously kill someone. but rest assured it will most likely be the guy down the street who gave out granola bars for halloween. bastard. so my overall average was an 88.286, i didnt get on honors, and im not on academic recognition because religion was lower than an 80. shit. i feel like such a dumbass, im so smart and i am totally unable to get on honors ever...ever. oh well, next quarter im going to do better i promise. well i dont promise but ill try a little bit. yeah so thats about all for today. im in love again by the way. or still. or maybe for the first time, i really dont know. good bye.

-----me
[Posted by Stephen] at 4:28 PM

blogger,
welltoday i went to see the ring with mal and mel and carolyn. 'twas the sickest thing ever i think. im afraid to do almost anything now. when it comes out on video im definately going to make a copy of it when i watch it. so i also saw erin at the mall and danielle ademac. i see her everywhere i go, its like some sort of conspiracy. seriously. i didnt get to sit next to moe in the movie tho...so it wasnt as fun. after wards mallory and i went and watched the first hour of sweet home alabama. it was pretty funny. on another note, i dont think im in love any more. ive gone down to defcon 2, and now im just obsessive. i found out she doesnt like me now, but doesnt like anyone else, so this in reality is the best time as any, but im still sittin around waiting. todays phrase was "procrastination is like masterbation, its all good fun until you realize your just fucking yourself" yeah, i definately waited untill like 5 minuites ago to do my book report. oh well. tomorrow i have play practice untill 7. whoop dee doo im SO going to fail everything. yep. so i just hope tomorrow is good, and i dont get a nose bbleed and rapidly decompose or anything...lol adios.

What you made will be unmade.
What you learned will be unlearned.
And when your done, You will be undone

-----me (gone wandering again)
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:59 PM

hey blogger hey blogger hey,
today is a good day. yesterday was a good day too. i finally got to see my janey, and i kicked her ass in street fighter. i won my thumb back. today is a good day too. i moved my bed against the wall so the only side f the bed i can get out of is the good side. im very happy right now and i really dont know why. nothing different has happened, im just abnormally happy. i hope this isnt a prelude to something far more sinister.....so, im still in love, and she still doesnt know. i should do something about it, but i dont think id be very good at it, especially since ive messed it up many times before. maybe one of these days it'll just come out and we can live happily ever after. that would be cool. thats all for now.

don't worry, i'll catch you

---Stephen (im back ^_^)
[Posted by Stephen] at 11:32 AM