[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, November 30, 2002]

reggolb,
today was a backwards day and a half. i did nothing productive once again. i watched cartoons and read comic books. i suck at guitar. i hate it. my family annoys me. they always want to have "family time" and it always involves taking me someplace they know i hate like church or shop rite, and then telling me im ruining the moment by not smiling. why cant we just play golf or paint the house like normal people? i dont know. i have to make cd's for people and i dont want to but i promised and blah blah blah. im taping 2 movies tonight, and i think ill watch them tomorrow. on monday i have to go for the consult so im missing track and the play practice. i can never do anything completely. i need to quit either drama or the play, but i dont know which one. if i quit the play theyll all be mad cuz its on such short notice and then tim needs someone to fill in, and if i quit track it'll just be like me to not follow through on something i have to work at. god dammit i hate this. next year im doing cross country, the play, and then tennis. nothing else. erg. i really need more time. and incentive to do something other than read comics. im going to run out and then ill be lost forever. today is over. it went so fast, because i watched tv. that totally kills the day away. im not going to sleep tonight, im going to go running or something. i didnt this morning cuz im lazy. and because i wanted to watch tv. no more tv for steve. steve is done. steve is going to run away to australia. steve is going to be a desert hermit. the end.

-----------me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:29 PM

Blogger,
'tis the day after thanksgiving and the end of fall, and everyone in the world is at the mall. from now untill christmas, im going to go to the mall once. thats it. i will not accompany my parents on shopping adventures that include and hour of finding a parking space. i will not. so thanksgiving was good as always, and my grandpa made seriously enough food to feed a small country (or the entire population of Rhode Island if you prefer) and i spent the past 2 days playing pokemon on my gameboy. thats such a cool game :-) yeah, im a dork, but i love it. christmas is in 4 weeks. not a long time. again this year i ask for nobody to buy me anything, because i will not be buying you anything. if you buy me something, as allison learned last year, i will not go out and buy you something, i will just feel very very very guilty about accepting your present. i dont feel like i deserve anything at christmas. this year all im asking for is a new computer (which were getting anyway because my entire family is fed up with this one) and my dad's credit card # so i may buy the violin i want from this website. i intend on paying him back. its only like $200 which, as far as violins go, is cheap as im told. so be it known that nobody will be recieving anything from me for christmas and i dont want anything from you. of course, theres still the after christmas, end of january-sale-a-thon list that i have. for my birthday however, i want to get this nifty little thing that has a dvd recorder and a vcr so i can record the 4,000 tapes of things i have into dvd's. i also want the new he-man and skeletor figures. theyre so cool. i have the old ones somewhere in a box and if i get the new ones they can join them on my shelf. i also need a bigger shelf. im such a packrat, and i have like 5,000 things on my shelf. i also wanna buy kingdom hearts, cuz i love all the disney charachters and i love all the final fantasy charachters and them all in one game....thats just too overwhelming. oooh heres a thought....if you wanna get me something for X-mas, give me quarters so i dont starve at lunch or after school. i cant go to track practice on monday, so i wont be allowed to go to the meet. great. i have to go for a consultation, so my dad and dr. newman can decide how theyre going to operate. yay. dad said i have to get my jaw bone broken, they'll reset the teeth, put bands on then, put chains on them, and then drug me up so i dont feel pain for the next 2 weeks while my jaw heals. yeeeah im going to get reeeal sick of jello in this period i can tell you that. the actual sergery is scheduled for the day after X-mas. yippee. so not only do i not deserve presents, i get immense pain and 2 weeks worth of jello and mashed potatoes. yeah so thats all the griping for today. ill have something more tomorrow.

And even if her plane crashes tonight
She'll find some way to dissappoint me.
By not burning in the wreckage
Or drowning at the bottom of the sea.

-----me
[Posted by Stephen] at 4:40 PM

blogger,
i'm sorry, i forgot to update yesterday. i was writing in you and then the power bliped and i never came back to it. im a loser like that. strongbad rules. today i had drama and track. didnt get home till 7. caroline wasnt i nschool today so we had to do snoopy with like 5 extras. twas quite interesting. i kissed katie :-D god shes hott. and shes just a normal person, not all wierd like the cool kids. joe casabona gets the boner of the day award. he is the coolest kid in the world. he IS charlie brown. "thats of no use, thats a monkey!" i love finding random papers that say that on them. it only happened twice today. im not going to school tomorrow cuz im going to my grandpa's house. i love thanksgiving because he knows how to cook. anette (his girlfriend) is very sick tho. im so sad :-(. everyone is getting sick and dying lately, so ive been telling everyone how much i love them and will miss them when they're gone....and i ask them if i can have their stuff when they die. tomorrow morning im going to my grandpas house for thanksgiving, im not coming back till friday. jane and erin, if you want an update (since i wont be able to write in the blog) text me. my digits be 845 551-6456 so yeah...text me :-). happy thanksgiving everyone. and whatever you do, dont eat 11 krispy kreme donuts, cuz theyre 200 calories each.

so love me so i can be myself again
so hate me so things seem normal in my head
im trying to break away this ball and chain
so love me so i can be myself again
so things seem normal in my head
so things seam normal in my head

-----me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:22 PM

blogger.....
i lost todays update to the deathly X

ps.....hi jane

---till tomorrow, me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:29 PM