[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, December 28, 2002]

blogger,
the existance of this update is merely to please jane and erin that yes, i did update, even tho i did absolutely nothing today. my favorite song in the world is jude law and a semester abroad by brand new. just so you know. yep...did nothing today but i loved it....yep it's only 7:45 and i'm ready for tomorrow....yep....the end

you can't resist her, shes in your bones
she is your marrow and your ride home
you can't avoid her, shes in the air
in between molecules of oxygen and carbon dioxide

only in dreams you see what it means
reach out a hand hold onto hers
but when we wake its all been erased
and so it seems only in dreams

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:44 PM

blogger,
it was just one of those i feel so good i could touch my toes moments, shes so talented, and i'm just on the sidelines. she always manages to lift my spirits somewhat, i dont know how. well it was good and now i must be off to sleep. i miss her, i love her, and i need to someday get to know her. theyre all different her's...confuzed? so am i. who knows what women want? besides mel gibson i think were all playing monopoly with the eskimo of the dark. but look at me just rambleing on and on, i havent a clue as to what i'm doing, and here i am talking on olde english. what the hell is wrong with me? i'm hoping to soon find out. good night bloger, i'm drifting on a cloud once again, god i love happy pills :-D

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:52 PM

Blogger,
2 days after christmas, getting better. i had the stupid sergery yesterday morning, yeah that sucked. i lost 3 hoursand when the happy gas wore off it was 12:00 and i couldnt feel my face at all. i came home and slept till about 6? then the novacain wore off and i discovered that i had chewed up my entire face and my lips were hella chapped. yaaaay. i coudlnt sleep last night either, i lay awake from 3-7 till it was tim to take the happy pills again, they just wore off now, and it doesnt hurt as much so i just had some asprin. even tho i was high as a kite, if i walked more than three steps i felt like i was going to throw up, it was pretty bad. i'm missing drama today, cuz i didnt want to be all retarded, and it hurts to talk so i didnt think i would get much out of it anyway. mommy went to the doctor again today, and she came back and all she wanted was sympathy and all i wanted was clean pants. she yelled for about 20 minuites about how helpless i am, meanwhile i'm sitting there, feeling like i'm about to float away with an ice pack on my face in my boxers cuz i feel like shit. yeah good call asshead. she needs to go away. i dont like her at all. ever. anytime i try to talk to her about something she has something to blame me for, even tho there are things i should be blamed for, its not like she has to bring them up all the time, i know what my faults are and i really dont care, i can live with them. i'm so hungry but the antibiotic i have to start taking makes me throw up too. great. at least its making my arm heal faster. yeah someday i'll be in good enough health to do anything at all. i'd like that. if there really was a santa clause, or any holiday magic at all, i'd wish for that, but thats only on tv. i wish i could be on tv. everything is so predictable and cliche, theres really nothing to worry about. i'm going to see EB's play today, sound of music i think, mom decided to make kevin come instead of letting me bring a friend, once again i believe it's just to spite me because her friend couldnt come. so now i'm mad, kevin is mad, and shes just crazy. my dad is the most patient person in the owrld, he should just be sainted. seriously. i'll write more later probably.

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 12:32 PM

blogger,
today sucked alot. i couldnt sleep last night, not because i was excited about christmas or whatnot, but because my throat hurt so much. i coulodnt talk all day and i can't swallow without writhing in pain. all i really wanted for x-mas was a violin and my dad said it was "impractical" so he didnt buy me one :-\. i felt like shit all day, i had no sleep, and tomorrow morning is the sergery. i might not go tho, if the roads are too bad, but i really just want to get it over with. i dont want to drag it into next week. i was supposed to call katie on monday and i forgot. anthony has colin cancer =(. if he dies i'm never going to my grandpas house again. he is the most fun adult in the world. so all in all today sucked. someday i'm going to have a good holiday i swear. cassie was the ebst part about today. i love her so so so much.

Catholic Cassie: stephen papageorge, as a christmas gift, i'm gonna tell you why i love you. youre a beautiful person, talented with school, tennis and all that. youre driven with guitar... this will all pay off in the long run. youre caring (ie putting up with carolyn) youre genuinly nice (putting up wiht me) you fall in love too easily, even though you try to avoid it everytime. youre a good listener, not so good at talking... but your funny. my parents love you a little too much.. but your not gonna waste your life away on drugs like a lot of good people i know.. in the long run, youre gonna go to a great college, makes lots of money, fall madly in love with someone who is just as in love with you and isn't a crack head, a screw up, and they have their head on straight. You're gonna be at least ten times greater of a person than i'll ever be, but most importantly youll be happy stephen, because you deserve it. and being happy like that is all you'll need. merry christmas ~catherine

merry fucking christmas

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:56 PM

blogger,
today i erin and then i ern. when i went to erin i think erin might have erin a little more than erin. it was so erin. erin owns erin like an erin would erin. holler erin nigs fo life erin ice cream is not cool as erin because erin is cooler than ice cream. erin owns my bones and my erin is owned by erin. ASIAN PRIDE MOTHER FUCKER!!!!

erin

---m erin e
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:25 PM

blogger,
today i played chrono cross for about 5 hours, and drew the rest of the day. i had fun. i decided not 5 seconds ago that i am never going to be sad again. its my new years resolution. i'm going to be happy, speak my mind, and not think twice about doing anything. ever. i just decided that i hate being sad and i always am. i'm going to start playing basketball again i think too, maybe...if i'm feelin really up to it. next week i'm going to start playing tennis too, cuz i want to be good. i'm smiling today, and i will be tomorrow too. i'm going to take down all the posters on my wall and replace them with my own drawings :-) i have to go wrap presents now, christmas isnt too far off.

but its always too late when you got nothing, so you say.
and you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
before the sun rises today.

---happy
[Posted by Stephen] at 5:56 PM

blogger
yeah so we didnt go to the concert *dies inside* my mom was all yelling and whatnot that she didnt want "someone to steal me" or anything so i couldnt go. blah. so instead amy and i went ice skating, which was fun for her for about 10 minuites. she has a shorter attenton span than i do. so we walked around the palisades mall for a while, got wendys, came home. i went to bed at 8:14 lastnight. i woke up at 9 this morning, and watched "clerks" till 12. the cartoon marathon. it was great. i have so much hair. i love it. yep so today is a major chillin day...i vacuumed my room thats how bored i was. i'll write more later if something eciting happens

Relationships and heart breaks,
those things are one in the same.
The radio plays a love song,
i smash my fist right through the dial.
here's to the broken hearted,
a generation born in denial.

----me
[Posted by Stephen] at 4:22 PM