[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, January 25, 2003]

blogger,
blah day. went to drama for 4 hours. She pissed me off again. erg. i dont know what i'm going to do. i kinda wish i went to the track meet. i wanted to run today. but that wouldnt have helped i dont think. i was going to run when i got home, but i decided against it. its way to cold outside. i dont know why i'm doing winter track of all things, the cold really gets to me. it's officially been 5 monthes since steve has gotten any mackage. this is sad. i gotta play tennis tomorrow, i hope joe's around. maura is the fastest sophomore girl. yay maura. if her hair were better looking, i think i might be in love with her. but her hair is so rancid. it used to look hott, but now it looks like gross people's hair. <----first time i've talked bad about someone. ...guess i'll go back to playing video games. good night blogger

and i'm still waiting here
to catch you if you fall
i don't know why i care so much
when i shouldn't care at all

---me

[Posted by Stephen] at 6:38 PM

blogger,
yeah, i'm rocking the black skull dragon. marty is incredibly awesome. today i had junior lunch with all my real friends, but they were all depressy and contemplating the whole abortion thing. i don't really have a strong opinion on the issue, i just think someone should think twice about having an abortion, and not just do it without a qualm. you have to realize that you are killing something that could have amounted to more than you. what if your about to kill the guy whos going to cure every disease? but then again what if he's going to be the new axis of evil? its a chance, and personally i wouldnt take it. i actually thought about this alot today. No matter the circumstance, you shouldnt kill anyone. given, if it came down to me or some random joe i'd pick myself most definately, but thats just because it's my selfish nature. if i had to choose weather i would feel all the pain and suffering in the entire universe and die from it tomorrow and nobody would ever hurt again i'd do it. todays little lyrical quote comes from "rookie" by boy sets fire. good song, and it reflects how i think about myself. as much as i envy other people, i want to be them, never exactly like them. i want to stand out somehow, even if its for something bad. someone famous once said "if you can' be famous, you might as well be infamous" all i want is for people to stop and say "boy i sure wish steve were here, only he could brighten this dreary scene" or something like that. i havent been keeping up with guitar lately, and my calouses went away. this is going to suck. i'm in one of those moods where i want to just sit here with jerry, but i cant play because everyone is sleeping. i miss my bench and stream. I had another religious experience today. i was listening to my CD player, and i put on a dave cd and it randomly goes to the christmas song right to the part with "when jesus christ was nailed to a tree, said 'oh daddy-o, i can see how it's all meant to be.' i came to shead a little bit of light on this darkening scene, but instead i fear i've spilt the blood of our children all around.". i don't know, i'm trying to be religious, but theres too much doubt for me to believe in anything. i don't know. i'm too busy for anything anymore. i hate it. today i was going to tell Her that i liked her and see what happened but being the big pussy that i am, i didnt. maybe if i go see the wizard he'll give me some courage = \ maybe next week i will. my goal is to do it before valentines day. yeah. i'm all thinking-ed out for today. i need to go to sleep. good night blogger

I used to be alot like you
now i'm only me
I'm only me, I'm only me
Will you forget me when i'm gone?

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:50 PM

blogger,
so today after school i went to the comicbook store, traded 1 measly magic card and in return got a blue eyes white dragon, dark magician, lord of dragons and card destruction. holler wut wut. i am officially the god of nerdy card games. tomorrow we're doing a run through of the play for mr mahoney. this isnt good. he's going to boot us and its going to suck. i'm going to get cut from track because i never show up and i feel like an ass for it. todfay's big blogger shoutouts are for mallory, sarah, and maura...this week's new junkies. also a special shout out to erin, who goes to bed earlier than me. i'm very thankful for cassie. on thanksgiving i pray about her. well now steve needs sleep. goodnight, moon

somehow here is gone

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:33 PM

blogger,
well today sucked, as it was longer than it should have been. drama was torture. i've lost all desire to do the play anymore. i'm not making any more commitments to burke, because its not at all worth it. She managed to piss me off immensely today. amanda is my friend. oh boy. that was awkward.today's shout outs go to maura and sarah, my new blogger fans. good to know people are reading this. I was actually hoping nobody would read it but whatever. my birthday is soon. theres no school on it, so i'm planning on locking myself up in my room and just sleeping all day, so that way it won't be incredibly terrible like it is evey year. i have no valentine. poor poor lonely steve. so far i've played FFX (final fantasy ten) for like 9 hours total. its addicting but its so great of a game i love it. yeah i'm going to replace girls in my life with video games. video games are more reliable. and they have a reset button. i love dave matthews and i want to go see him real bad. #41 is the ebst song ever. I live by it.

PeachzNcreme97: u should turn ur whole blogger into a book
PeachzNcreme97: bc its well written
PeachzNcreme97: its like how carrie bradshaw in sex in the city takes all of her articles she writes in vogue and commbines them into a book called... sex in the city
PeachzNcreme97: how great would that be?
PeachzNcreme97: it would be super great

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:11 PM

blogger,
wow hectic weekend. i got final fantasy X. yeah its great. i played it for 4 hours 37 minuites today. (it says how long you've played on the save screen) no i'm not an addict, but its just so fun. i'm so psyched about this midterm week. no homework, no track, plenty of time to play final fantasy X and i'm going to read lord of the rings, the last book. i have to read it before the movie comes out. i'm going to need to get a job soon. i also need to play guitar more. so todays Random Shower Thought was: why is anna nicole smith so damn annoying? thats all for today, good night

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:27 PM

blogger,
yesterday i went to see lord of the rings again. great movie. great movie. i'll say it again, great movie. it was also the first time i went to the mall and didnt run into any burke people. i'm going to classify this as a small miracle. another miracle, is that i now have about 200 yu-gi-oh cards and havent spent any money on them. yeah, i rule. one thing that crossed my mind this morning was shampoo. again. i think about shampoo alot, especially when i'm in the shower. theres not much else to do but think about shampoo. ok, so any time you touch a girls hair they say "it feels gross because i didnt use conditionar this morning" this brings two things to mind a) do girls ever use conditioner? and b) if they do, why does their hair look exactly the same? my hair feels exactly like anyone elses and i dont even know how to go about finding conditioner. shampoo comercials crack me up too. theres more vitamins in shampoo than in my flinstones tablets. wtf? hair is a mass of dead cells, why does it need vitamins? who knows. its just one of those things i'm not even going to think about anymore. and just in case any of you reading this are yu-gi-oh fans, theyre making a pegasus and joey starter deck in march, complete with special edition red eyes black dragons and relinquished. holler. imma try to scam one of them. today i'm playin tennis with joe marino again. this season is going to be more fun than last year. i already promised to myself never to get seriously pumped about winning or anything, cuz thats all i did last year and i got really upset when i lost which was alot. so i think i'll just have the same attitude about it as i will towards track. how many laps do i run? yeah there was a meet yesterday i didnt go to. darn. its really a shame i cant make saturday meets. (sarcasm) its really a shame i have no sense of commitment. i got a 24/24 on the spanish oral regents. better than lendl. holler. pretty soon i'll be better at yu-gi-oh than him. cards i want: sanga of thunder, suijin, buster blade, red eyes black dragon, blue eyes white dragon, illusionist faceless mage, crab turtle&the ritual, labrynth walls, launcher spider, catapult turtle, , and swords of revealing light. if you'd like to donate to the "buy steve more yu-gi-oh cards because he's 6 years old" fund, mail a self addressed stamped envelope full of cash to me. yeah i'm a dork, but i dont care. and a note on the super-secrative topic of who i like....we're just friends =( boo frickity hoo.

oh no it happened again
she cool shes hott shes my friend
shes unstoppable
unpredictable
i'm so jaded
calculated wrong

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 12:22 PM