[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, February 08, 2003]

Blogger,
todays plans went quite awry, and mommy and daddy are fighting again = (. blaaaaah i love how anytime things start to go my way something like this happens. things arent looking too good, so right now i'm going to so seclude myself in my room and read my book. blah

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 5:35 PM

Blogger,
Back to the old green and white layout. i like this one better, its more me. so i redid my whole website setup, i'm still not done. it's still so very plain, but i'll fix that. i'm going to need to make some graphics, and that involves using flash. oh boy. thats always an adventure. no school today by the way, thats awesome, i love when it snows and i don't have to shovel it. if any of you bookmarked the old blogger site, change it to the new all in one website http://www.justspace.cjb.net its going to get updated in the future with anything new. keep signing the tagboard with whatever you want. now back to looking for meaningfull content.....

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 1:40 PM

blogger,
pretty good day. i had 2 lunches, holler that. i have an insane amount of homework tonight, but i'm not going to school tomorrow. its a half day, and i have to go to the orthodontist at 9 anyway, so i'm just not going in at all. i really really really need to play guitar more often. i played game boy in computer, religion, and spanish today. school is getting more and more boring. i'm really really in love with *her* but i'm still waiting on it. i'm going to ask her out for real this time, i dont care, no matter what. the play is coming up really quick, and i'm getting worried. i know my lines well enough i can ad lib something if i forget and all, but still, i dont think we're ready for it. its horribly underfunded and unrehearsed, and the school isnt very supportive of it. blah. its going to be good tho, despite what i say, and EVERYONE NEEDS TO COME TO IT. FEBRUARY 21 thats in like 2 weeks. tickets will be sold during lunch next week, and for you non-burkies reading this, call the school office to reserve a ticket, they wont be sold at the door so plase please please call as soon as possible. :-) thank you. i would really appreciate it if you went to it. besides that, nothing big is really going on. tennis starts march third. i am so ready. i need to go to the mall tomorrow to get tennis shoes, and my costume for the play. on my birthday i'm going to sit home and do absolutely nothing besides eat chocolate, so if anyone would like to join me, you're welcome to. actually you're not, because that means i have to share the chocolate. in case you havent heard, the guy across the field from me (yes, across the feild, i live in florida new york) got stabbed to death two days ago. crazy huh? this weekend i'm going to change the blogger layout. really i am. i'm sick of this one. i'll still leave the tag board up and stuff, but i just want another layout, this one is geting old. yeah, thats about it for today. no lyrics because i can't sing. my head is too full of nothing.

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:08 PM

Blogger,
Well, today sure went by quick. i had religion for the first time this semester, and mrs cully is stil a bitch. yep. i read comics through her class. in typing, i played gameboy. in spanish i played game boy. so i now have three periods to play gameboy. for my birthday i'm asking for some gameboy games, because pokemon is getting old. valentines dance on the 13th. i'm going to ask *insert her name here* as soon as it looks safe. i'm going wether it works out with *her* or not. i havent gone to any this year, so i kinda owe it to the world. adunno. yup yup yup, well on my one free day EVER i have lots of homework. goody. adios blog man.

Your watching
My heart being,
So close to you,
your bleeding thoughts
Open wounds
Still breathing
Your my everything, you're my everything

Left behind, hateful thoughts
Overwhelmed by your mind, lost in time again
Shadows bringing me down
Jealous of your face,
Drowning in your awe

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 4:23 PM

Blogger,
today was interesting, i was at burke for 14 hours straight. thats right 8:00 am. till 10:00 pm. whoo. i had drama, then there were the jv and varsity games vs. goshen, jv lost VARSITY WON. holler. yeah cassie and erin: i saw you guys but they were being gay and didnt let us leave the stands till y'all goshen kids left. sorry = (. omg, i got 3 college letters today. this is crazy. i'm growing up way too fast. i got letters from Canisius?, Fordham, and Bryant?. never heard of those two. so its official, THE PLAY IS FEBRUARY 20TH AND 21ST at burke, its a dinner theatre, its a good show COME TO IT. i'm trying out for the musical next monday, but i don't want a big role, because i'll be doing tennis in the spring. its going to be more fun this year. i'm actually going to the valentines dance, go me. and i'm going to ask someone to be my valentine = ). i think everyone BUT her knows i like her. yup yup yup, i have a super idea for valentines day. hehehe. i'm out early tomorrow, holler. i have so much to do. oh man. well i'm going to bed now, too much burke for one day. good night all.

your arms in mine, anytime
wouldn't trade anything
you're still my everything
don't worry i'll catch you
don't ever worry

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:32 PM

Blogger,
bad day. well, it wasn't really all that bad, but it could have been alot better. it was the first day of the new semester and so far its not looking so good. i got most of my grades, i did pretty good. except in spanish = (. mr black told me this morning i need an 85 or higher to get transfered out, and the second he said that i had a gut feeling i was going to have an 84...lo and behold, i walk into spanish today and mrs castellanos is like "i graded your regents....bad news" yeah i got an 84. yeah i was pissed. yeah everybody teased me about it today. i think today i've been teased and hit more than any day of my life, no joke. everyone had something to say today, and i wanted to tell them all to shut it. keyboarding, mr welch is the most anal person i have ever met, he screamed at us first thing. mr cockran is an ass hole too, he deleted all entertainment off the computers, including solitaire. what an ass. i'm going to spend most of my time in the class playing game boy, and if he takes it away, hes going to find peanut butter in his cd rom drive. what an ass hole. my birthday is a week from friday. i don't want anything except for my dad to freaking order the new computer that i picked out like 2 monthes ago. i swear he's against all forms of technology. he thinks transportation should have stopped at the bicycle. about this girl...... i think it might go somewhere this time, i'm hoping it does. if it doesnt, i might cry. well not really, but i'd be ultra super pissed about how stupid i am. i adore frankie muniz. he gets with a different blonde hott girl on every episode of malcom in the middle. i swear he's the luckiest kid in the world. i wish i was as suave as he is. *sigh* the get up kids are great. so are the goo goo dolls. i hope we have off tomorrow or something, i've only been back to normal school one day and already i'm stressed out. i hate this. erg. thats all my complaints for today. good night blogger.

you could hide beside me, maybe for a while
and i won't tell no one your name

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:12 PM

Blogger,
yesterday was a bitch. it was way way way to long. i was so bored. i watched the rest of history of the world so i could give it back to carolyn finally. i talked to amy and greg on three way for about 7 hours. greg's blogger sucks. dont read it. if you're a moron and want to read it, http://www.gregisaposerdavemathewsfan.blogspot.com . So yeah, i took all those quizzes yesterday, i dont know what i am. theres all these social stereotypes and i dont really fit into any of them. i'm not more than 50% anything really. i need to find a test that will tell me like "you are 100% boy" or "you are 100% alive" that way i'll at least feel like i belong SOMEWHERE. whatever. space shuttle blew up yesterday. yeah...i don't really have anything to say about it. thats another thing i don't get about myself, something terrible happens and it doesnt really hit me for quite a while. i'm going to make my own cool little layout for this site. thats going to be my new project. i'll probably do some sketches or something and scan them and make the background look like rough pencil drawings of something, i saw it somewhere and i forgot to bookmark it but it was really neat-o keen. yep yep, i'm going to play tennis later with my dad and the marinos. holler. this will be quite the experience, it's been at least a year since i bested the old man....

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 12:53 PM