[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, April 12, 2003]

blogger,
never play R-Type 3....NEVER. its so fucking addicting its not even funny. its gone on the list of games that are too addicting to play along with mah-jong and bejewled. its one of those games that so simple yet you can't beat it. i got up to the second level, and i decided not to play it ever again because i'd spent 3 hours on the first. its a 1 hit you're dead type thing and the level is timed, not based on how much shit you can blow up. so yeah, today i'm hoping and hoping that they'll have the gameboy SP so i can start the frenzy and addiction that will be pokemon saphire. oh man. haha i just realized how bad that picture really is. i probably should have given michele a better picture of me for her quiz, but i'm an ugly kid anyway, so i suppose it doesn't really matter much now does it? hehe i forgot to shave half my face that day. good job steve. i've been forever branded as the kid with the bad picture on his student ID. thats going to be this years yearbook picture. oh boy. yeah, so, since the blogger is no longer the main focus of my site, i'm going to need to do some re-do-ing....or something. the site is going to be awfully boring without anything to keep people coming back, which apparently they did because i got so many complaints about the blogger being discontinued. oh well, i need to go take a shower before the good cartoons come on later. new smallvilles this week *score* i'm excited. later blogger.

mood: excited
music: filter - take a picture

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:24 AM

blogger,

You're Stephen! You're by far one of the coolest
kids that makes people laugh a lot.


Which one of Michele's friends are you?


i love michele. shes so cool. so yeah, here's the love life update, i don't like anyone, carolyn and joe finally hooked up, which i am very happy about. and...uh...thats about it. i think right now the only person i could like is kerry, but i'm still not too sure about her. she was ***** in previous entries, when pople could still read this. maybe tomorrow night something will happen. it'd be cool. right now i'm going to learn a new song. jerry is lonely. cartoons in the morning, good night blogger.

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:35 PM

hey blogger,
today was quite humerous. we had a "pep rally" aka school riot. theres not enough school spirit in burke to fill a tea cup. its sad. some chic was supposed to sing the national anthem, and she messed it up. psshh what a loser. it was funny tho. so yeah, i skipped alot of class today. i don't really care anymore. they're mailing me my report card, so i wont get it till who knows when. i didn't feel like taking the bus home today, so danielle offered to drive me home. we left school at 2:45, and took a detour to cafe ala mode, and hannah and dale's and the library, and the dentist, and danielles, and who knows where else we went. its now 5:10 and i just got home. the bus woulda been much faster, but that was so much more fun. oh yeah. tomorrow night is amy's birthday party. i'm going to get her a robot, because she doesn't have any cool boy toys, and she watched chick cartoons like the dork she is. :-P. yup, so i'm gunna go see what kevin the conqueror is doing downstairs with ryan and kyle. theyre maniacs. adios blogger.

mood: content
music: blink 182 - what went wrong?

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 5:15 PM

blogger,
the secracy is exciting. yep, so this morning i went to the orthodontist, i'm going to have braces till i'm 70, no joke. in school melissa didn't say anything to me about last night's post. so yeah.....adunno. we watched enemy at the gates in global, and it was good. i love that movie. tennis was bad, i'm so bad, i hate it. erg. tomorrow we're supposed to have a match at goshen, but its going to rain so it'll be canceled. thats 5 in a row. dammit. so thats really all i have to say today. goodbye blogger.

music: rufio - one slowdance

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:36 PM

blogger,
i just told everyone you were discontinued, i lied. i'll still write like i normally do, i just don't want anyone to see it. i don't want people to know i'm still insecure and whatnot. i'm going to bed now, goodnight.

mood: scared
music: dashboard confessional - drowning

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:08 PM

blogger,
fourth blog today. it's healthy i believe. here's the shakedown of whats been going on in my life for the past few months, a full confession if you will. i've been obsessing over this girl, and if you've been a blogger fan for a while i tought you'd have picked up on who it was, apparently sarah isn't too bright, so i'll just tell you. it was melissa. personal note to her: if you didn't know it was you, you surprise me. i'd also grown quite fond of carolyn, but as a friend. drama was the best thing that ever happened to me, i'd always felt like i didn't really have any friends, just people who didn't mind having me around as much as anyone else, but i really started feeling like these were people that liked me. it was pretty cool. i remember the first day of school this year, thinking about how cool it was going to be too see everyone again...and then walking into the building in the morning and being utterly dissappointed because i was hit with the realization that i didn't really have anyone to come back to. now its april, and after all that, i think i can say i belong. tim told me that catherine is trying to find a way to get me into the prom. thats mondo cool. so, all this being said, i'm content with my life. but, as past trends have tended to run, whenever i spill my guts i end up having someone mad at me. and this time, i'm putting it all out on my sleeve for basically anyone to see. if your mad at me, tough. i don't really care. i'm finally happy. i've also no need for this blogger anymore. so, i guess this is goodbye blogger. it's been fun.

This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun
Remind me not to ever act this way again
This is you trying hard to
make sure that you're seen
With a girl on your arm
and your heart on your sleeve
Remind me not to ever think of you again
This is me with the words
on the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun
Remind me not to ever act this way again

---me

[Posted by Stephen] at 10:04 PM

blogger,
third thought, i have alot more to say. i dont like "Her" i don't like *****, i don't like anyone. i need to take a break from "liking" anyone. its just making my head cluttered with things i don't need to be thinking about because i'm a stupid teenager and i can't handle girls right now. i can't say the right things, i can't be romantic, and i can't talk to anyone about anything serious. so thats it, i'm done. the end. i've never really fallen into a real social niche, but i'm going to try to. i think i like the "dweeb" one the best. this weekend i'm going to go and buy gameboy, i'm going to buy pokemon saphire, and i'm going to like it. i need to concentrate on tennis and my grades. i skipped tennis today which was stupid, and i'm doing terrible in school. i'm not going to go on instant messager anymore, its so stupid. i only talk to like 3 people and they're never on at the same time. i had chinese for dinner, and my fortune was "don't be hasty, prosperity will knock on your door" so i think i'll give prosperity a few months to come-a-knocking, then i'll take the initiave. i'm out of the pool, i've dried off, and i'm changing into normal clothes. i've been doing fine without her, so why put myself through hell now? she doesn't like me anyway, and i can respect that. i'm not exactly the serious boyfriend anyone wants. i'm a goofy ADD child. well, the ps2 is calling me, so i'll have to call it a night. good bye blogger

mood: decided
music: saves the day - one nineteen

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:07 PM

blogger,
on second thought, i have alot more to say. first off, today was the stupidest day in the entire world. i got a tardy demerit first period. erg. first one this semester tho, so its all good. in math this quarter, i've gone from like a 98 to a 61. i'm so fucking dumb its not even funny. theres a new girl in our grade, her name's jenna. she sits next to me in math. shes real quiet and didn't seem to eager to make friends. i've heard shes down with the ghetto bitches group and she gets in alot of fights, so i guess its all for the better. in religion i couldn't write anything because some preist guy came in and was all like "vocations this" and "vocations that" he had some sob story about how he got shot in the arm when he was 17. boo-frickity-hoo he led us in prayer, and when he saw me not praying he scowled at me. anytime i made one of my usual smart-ass comments he scowled again. in keyboarding we have to make this newsletter thing, mine is pretty good. i'm very proud of it. hehe we were allowed to make stuff up for it, so i wrote an article aboutn how mr. gilmore is an alien. it explains the goggles and antennae. saturday amy is havin a birthday party >yay< she said its just for the girls but i get to go too. i think shes trying to make me gay. i've been reading all the penny arcade comics. hose are so grat, but you have to be a videogame nut like me to apprecciate them. mmm daddy just came home with chinese, so i'll have to continue ranting later. adios blogger

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:03 PM

blogger,
its still shitty weather out, so tennis was inside for an hour...i skipped. i'm lazy like that. mom picked me up so i didn't have to take the bus home. my cell phone is a peice of shit and can't hold a charge. i told amy i'm in love with ***** and she was like aww. and i talked to ***** and she was like "yeah i know you do" and i was like ahh. so...uh...yeah. maybe i'll grow a pair o' plums and ask her out or something. who knows. i've nothing more to say today, goodbye blogger.

mood: scared
music: rufio - just a memory

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:45 PM

blogger,
today got somewhat better. i started playing megaman 7, and i beat 2 bosses right away. not too shabby. i traded yu-gi-oh cards with ryan and i got the beast of talwar. oh yeah. now my #1 most wanted card is barrel dragon. i got marty a dark magician, the cool one. today he gave me 60 deck prtectors. score. he's like the yu-gi-oh fairy godmother....only asian. he's given me so much, i feel i owe him something, so i'm giving him a cool ultra-rare card for free. what a nice guy. i need to write my global essay. shit. i guess i need to call it a night as far as online goes. goodnight blogger.

mood: better
music: dashboard confessional - shirts and gloves

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:44 PM

blogger,
4:15 and i just got home. i fucking hate taking the fucking bus. the stupid seward kids are fucking ass holes. arrrrrg. today was such a bad day. i feel like crap. i didn't have any homework done, i did it all during classes today, and i have to write the DBQ essay tonite that was due today. my pedal didn't come. that was the one thing i was looking foward to. 2-3 days my ass its been a week. i give up. today sucks so bad. i'm going to go to sleep right now and hope i dont wake up till tomorrow morning.

mood: pissed off at everything that is tuesday.
music: none

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 4:20 PM

blogger,
pretty uneventful day once again. i spent a large portion of the morning fruitlessly attempting to create a new layout for mighele's blogger. i love how blogger is a frickin layout-nazi. if its not an official blogger layout you can't use it. stupid ass holes. whatever. i played super r-type for about two hours. that game is so amazing. oh man. i can't remember the name of the show, does anyone remember that old 90's nickalodeon show where the kids had to play the videogames for points and then at the end they went into the game? oh man, i loved that show. i don't play alot of videogames. seriously. there are people out there who are hard core, and i'm just a little kid who can't reach the top shelf. yeesh. my pedal still didn't come 8-(. i hope there isn't school tomorrow and it comes. we're supposed to have a match tomorrow but i highly doubt that. i finally found the ataris song that they played at the concert that made me cry. its called my reply, its the third track i believe off their new record So Long Astoria in concert he stopped and told ua about this letter he got from this girl with a terminal illness and about how music was the one thing keeping her going. he had the letter in his hand while he said this, and he shed a tear or two as well. it was touching, really. that was the only time i've cried in the past 5 years. so yeah, todays music was partially the ataris, but i'm still hooked on dashboard confessional. i think they've become #1 on the list of bands i need to see before i die. todays songs included: hands down, so impossible, drowning, and a plain morning. after talking to her last night and thinking about her all day today, i think i kinda like her. its a different girl this time, and no its not carolyn or michele. although carolyn is a sexy beast. and michele is mondo trendy....haha mondo trendy. hey steve, the 80's called and they want their words back. oh and for those of you who were wondering, there is no secret weapon in mega man X3, but you can get the gold armor which allows you to hold all 4 chip upgrades and zero's beam saber. no i haven't gotten it, because i can't beat Byte because i'm stupid and saved fighting neon tiger last and thats the level byte is in and guess what byte's wekness is? yep, ray splasher (neon tiger's weapon). good job steve. so, steve is gunna go not do his homework and watch tv and hope for a delay or something tomorrow. and the pedal. good night

mood: sloth-like
music: Audio Karate - One Day

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:21 PM

blogger,
no school. happy steve. today will be fun, i'm planning on playing grand theft auto till about 8:00 tonite. yeah thats about it. i've achieved ultimate status in megaman. i got the hadoken...in megaman. i am ultimate. it kills anything in one shot. oh man, is it harsh. i beat sigma with it, but i don't think that counts. it was too easy. so...yeah. i'm in love again...but this time with someone different. shes really hott and we hold hands and her name rhymes with nichele. i hope she doesn't find out :-x. hehe. yeah, i'm gunna go do...something. maybe try to find the secret weapon in megaman X3. yeah baby. HADOKEN!

mood: excited
music: blink 182 - all the small things

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:46 AM

blogger,
well today sure was an adventure. i went over joey's and of course coburn was there. he's everywhere, seriously. so joe and i jammed for a while, but i suck so we had to stop. i watched him pwn in unreal tournament and suck in MOHAA...or the other way around. then christian choked on a reisin, and went to burke to make his appearance at the concert, joey phil and i went to the buffet and i stabbed an asian with a fork. today i learned that nerds jawbreakers are not bouncy balls. "you havin fun?" "yeah" "why don't you grow up" "why don't you get a real job" haha losers are those who work at wal mart and are 35 and have mullets. psshh. oy...joey gave me two books to read. i'm going to go read one of them in a short time. its supposed to snow tomorow. yipee 8-) i don't want to go to school. i swear if we have school but no tennis i'll crap my pantaloons.

mood: content
music: dashboard confessional - sharp hint of new tears

---me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:22 PM

hello blogger,
i'm currently in the throne of joey casabona...he's pooping...shh. yeah, we're making a killer compy for steve. its going to rule. ah he's back. later
[Posted by Stephen] at 2:45 PM