[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, May 24, 2003]

Blogger,
Well today was the most boring day of my entire life, I believe. I accomplished nothing. I talked to kerry. Bad news there. Shes still in denial. I really wish she would just believe what i tell her, and move on. Yeah, i still have feelings for her, no, we're not getting back together. It's really not what i want right now. I really am content to be single and just hang out. Thats all I want to do. I'm so glad today is over, you have no idea. Michele has vanished. AIM sucks without her. It also doesn't help that i have no conversational skills. I'm ready to go to sleep, today is just dragging on and on and on, much like the Catch 22 song. All I did today was read comic books. I like Pink Floyd.

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

I miss Amy sometimes.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:27 PM

Blogger,
I'm in such a mood right now it's not even funny. I feel like such an ass hole, seriously. I just read Kerry's online diary and its all about me, and i feel really really really bad now. Its going to be all weird with us now, I know it. I wish things were different. I think i'm going to extend the "Never fall in love with Amy" rule to include her friends too. Bad times. Bah. I just needed to get that out. This weekend needs to get better. Its raining, and it looks like i'll be sitting home alone all day today. Tomorrow we're havin a BBQ, I'm excited. On Monday Danielle and I are going scootering, weather permiting. Right now i just want to go back to sleep.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 11:55 AM

Blogger,
Well, I am no longer a virgin. I went to the DMV to get my permit and they fucked me in the butthole. SO not cool. I didn't get my permit because i waited for an hour...just to get the form to fill out and "Oh look at that, it's closing time." Mmm someone's going to die. So anyway, after that minor defeat, dad and I went to see the Matrix Reloaded. Awesome movie, that it was. I got a new celly, porque someone stole my old one, R.I.P. I think i'm going to name this new one Seraph. Its hella sleek. Muahaha. So thats about it for today. I'm pretty tired, and cartoons are on in the morning. Good night Blogger.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:55 PM

Blogger,
I would just like to state for the record that today, Thursday May 22, at 8:40 pm. i spoke to Michele Riso on the phone for the very first time, and it was good. That is all.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:58 PM

Blogger,
Well i spent a major portion of today worrying about the Kerry situation. I went to the orthodontist, and came to school late. She wasn't there today, was even worse. So when i came home I talked to her, and we're square now. :-). I'm happy about that, that she doesn't hate me. So everything is as good as it can be given the situations. Tomorrow I'm finally going to get my permit. I'm excited. I'm also going to see The Matrix Reloaded. Double score. Thats all i have for today.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:11 PM

Blogger,
I'm sorry I didn't update last night, I was so busy. I had to rewrite my entire term paper, becaue I'm that cool. Haha, Joey has my back though. Good thing he knows my passwords for everything. So anyway, today was bad, bad, bad. I handed in my term paper, 7,000 mistakes and all. I'm going to get such a bad grade on it. Danielle was supposed to come over to play videogames with steve but she couldn't. :-(. Kerry and I are done. I broke it off. It just wan't what i wanted right now, and the situation was too stressful and complicated. I don't know, i wish it could have worked out, but i just couldn't see it happening. I've really got nothing more to say, I don't know what to say.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:46 PM

Steve!!!! Security Brech!!! Ownzord!!!! I mean....what....Ill let you decide if you want to publish it.......i was here.....Joey
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:11 AM

Blogger,
Well, in an effort to cheer myself up, I went back to March third and retook the quiz I had shisted from Perri, because alot has changed, I believe. Here she be.

Name 3 habits u have:
1) I flick my nose when i'm bored
2) I tap my fingers alot
3) I'm impulsive

Name four scents you love:
1) Watermelon Push Pops
2) Pasta
3) Apples
4) Anything but my school sweater

Name something you'd never wear:
1) A speedo, and nothing else

Name 3 animals you like:
1) Tiger cubs
2) Monkeys (who doesn't?)
3) Sarah Sampson

Name four television shows you love:
1) Everwood
2) Smallville
3) Friends
4) The man show

Name 2 bands/genres most people don't know you like:
1) Pink Floyd
2) Gin Blossoms

Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
1) Powerade
2) Orange Juice
3) Iced Tea

Name a random fact about yourself:
I have no internal monologue.

Name a random fact about your family:
They're dysfunctional

Have you ever...
1)Fallen for your Best Friend? yes
2)Made out with JUST a friend? yeah
3)Been rejected or heartbroken? More than once
4)Been in love? What is love anyway?
5)Been in lust? Many a time.
6)Used someone? No.
7)Been used? Yes.
8)Cheated on someone? Never
9)Been cheated on? Yes.
10)Done something you regret? Every day.

Who was the last person..
11)You touched? Marty
12)You talked to? Marty
13)You hugged? Carolyn = )
14)You instant messaged? Joey
15)You yelled at? Myself
16)You laughed with? Joey
17)You had a crush on? Melissa
18)Who broke your heart? Mel again


Do you:
19)Colour your hair? Nope
20)Have tattoos? Nope
21)Piercings? Nope
22)Own a web cam? Nope
23)Have aol? Optimum Online
24)What should you be doing right now? My term paper.
25)What are you listening to? Boy Sets Fire - Rookie
27)Chicken or fish? chicken
28)Do you have a favourite animal? Saber-toothed screaming lemur
29)Is ice cream the best thing in the world? At Friendlees with a 12 inch spoon, yes.

1. What would your dream date be?: DMB in concert
2. Single flower or a dozen? bouquet of shredded TV Guides
3. Silver, gold or platinum? Silver
4. Candle lit dinner in a restaurant or at home? Home
6. Silly or serious romance? Silly, I can't be serious
7. Marvin Gaye or Barry White? I actually don't like either of them.


8. Do you consider yourself:

Romantic? Not at all.
Snotty? Not really...
Quiet? When people are being serious
Boring? Very.
Funny? On Occasion

Have you ever...
Dissected something? Many things.
Drank fluids? No, i absorb moisture through the air.
Kissed someone? Yes
Missed someone? Yes.
Told someone you love them? I've never really meant it like you'd think.
Talked to someone you have a crush on? Daily.
What CD is in your CD player right now? The Ataris - So Long Astoria
Q. Favourite song? Rufio - Still
Q. What is your shoe size? 11
Q. What will you be when you grow up? Old.
Q. What are you doing right now? Writing in the blogger
Q. What's that smell? Hamburgers cooking downstaris.

So there you have it, once again. i really need to go do something before i explode. blah.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:41 PM

Blogger,
Bad day, bad day, bad day. I can't stand all the drama thats been going around. Things were great when nothing was incredibly complicated, and I was sooooo happy. I should have seen it coming, nothing had gone wrong in so long. I fucking hate this. I just want to cease to exist. I think the only good part about today was that Mrs. Ross made our term paper due Wednesday instead of tomorrow. Dad's home, so I'm going to go eat dinner with him or whatever. Goodbye

So don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that fucked up and col
Remember while you're here and while you're alive
Experience the warmth before you go.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:25 PM

Blogger,
Today was Tons of Fun...aka, Joey came over. i taught him how to play Magic and Yu-gi-oh, and I ownzored him in both. Some highlights include: "Shut up, I'm Buddha."; "I'm in."; "Hero of the day."; "Ninjas."; and "Mest up Girl". What cool kids we are. So noice. Eddie is my new hero. "I wear a dooooo rag, cuz you'z a fag." Haha. So, I'm done for tonite. School tomorrow. Boo! Good night.

Mood: Noice
Music: Pink Floyd - Another Brick in the Wall

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:53 PM