[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, June 28, 2003]

Blogger,
Well today there was so much tension in the air you could cut it with a knife. I was out with dad all day looking at cars, and we came home and mom and Kevin are gone. So dad gives me a talk about how things are. Again, I only half-heartedly listen. I got a haircut this morning. Nothing crazy, just a little cleaned up. It was getting a bit out of hand. The only bad news is that mom is leaving for the shore tomorrow night, and I have to go. I really don't want to, I haven't seen Danielle or Carolyn in ages, the laptop and router haven't come yet, and I'm not nearly done setting up this computer yet. Bah. So now I need to pack, and then I'm going to look for some stuff for my Palm, so maybe I'll have something to do while I'm down there. I'm going to write entries on it so when I come back I can post them. Bah my plague is back. I hate it. Hopefully the salt water will kill it. So, I bid you adieu. Adieu.

Nintey-nine dreams I have had,
And every one a Red Balloon.
Its all over and I'm standing here,
In the dust that was a city.
Wish I could find a souvenir,
Just to prove the world was here.
Here it is a red balloon,
I think of you,
And let it go...

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:31 PM

Blogger,
I suppose its time I filled you in on whats going on. I've been really distant lately, and I know the Blogger has been getting really boring. For about 2 weeks mom has been down at the shore, and yesterday she came home. I went out to get dinner with my dad and I came home to her and Kevin crying. She takes me upstairs into her room and tells me that she's getting a divorce. She's leaving tomorrow to go to the shore and isn't coming back. I can't say I didn't see this coming, all they've been doing is fighting for the past nine months. Being the emotionless blob that I am, I really don't know what to say to either of them. I just kinda nodded them off and made like I was really intent on setting up this computer, which I really was. I don't really know what to do about this; I'm not going to cry and go into a depression, thats not what I do, I'm not like that. So I guess I'm just going to grin and bear it. I'm looking on the bright side, at least they didn't sue eachother out of their minds. So that's that, and I'm not going to dwell. It'll all be ok, right? I sure hope so.

Why don't you look beyond those days?
They're gone.
See through the shadows of these days.
One darkened day, turned blue.
These lights shone through.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:26 AM

Blogger,
Well I got my new computer and I was planning on doing something great to the site but it's going to have to wait. I've got too much on my plate right now, I'll write about it tomorrow. I need to go to bed. Good night.

So send the pain below...
Much like suffocating...

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:56 PM

Blogger,
Well today was a very good day. I woke up nice and late and had a leisurely breakfast of hot pockets and iced tea. Lucas came over at about 1:00. We played Magic and watched Samurai X and other various cartoons. I'm so happy, he gave me all of his Magic cards. thats like 1,000+ cards. Awesome kid. I'm going to decimate you Joseph. So while I was out eating dinner, they came with the computer. I need to sign for it so they didn't just leave it. They're coming back tomorrow at 5:00 with it instead now. I'm kind of mad that I missed it, but at least now I know where it is. So I've got 1,000+ Magic cards to go sort through, Adios Blogger.

Mood: Happy =)
Music: Yellowcard - Something of Value

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:59 PM

Blogger,
Last night they upgraded my blogger updater thingy, Woo hoo!! So since I wasn't able to post, here's last night's post.

Day 3 of isolation. I started talking to myself, singing, musing, that I have. I've been acting more and more like Kenshin, too. . I also started carrying my samurai sword, which I have named saibatosu, around the house with me. I didn't comb my hair this morning, and its completely emo-ed out. I really want to go somewhere tomorrow. I'm sick of this house. Also, the computer didn't come today. Twice I got my hopes up, only to be let down with stunning velocity. This morning at around 12:00 the Airbourne Express truck comes up and I, with my misplaced optimism, dashed towards the door, greeted with a small package from Dell Corp. handed to me. I was expecting the guy to go back into the truck to get the rest of it...no such luck. All they shipped was the Nornton Anti-Virus CD. Later, actually not too long ago, while I was eating dinner, the UPS truck arrived, and once again, I rushed to the door, and was greeted with only a small parcel containing a pair of socks my mother had ordered. Fate, it seemed, was trying to play a cruel joke on me. So much to my dismay, the computer did not arrive today, and i'm still writing you on this peice of junk I hate ever-so-much. Today's accomplishments were minimal. I finished reading Harry Potter 5, and that's about it. I wish my mother would come home. maybe someday she'll come back. I decided that my first project on the new computer will be to fix up this shoddy thing I like to call a website. I have like 5 new things I want to put up. I'm not going to tell you what they are, so you'll be confused and mystified.

And there you have it. I'll write more later tonight. I hope the computer comes today...

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:51 AM

Blogger,
Another good day of no school. I'm diggin this vacation thing. Turns out, I'm not going to the shore for a while still. Mom isn't coming home for who knows how long. My computer is supposed to come tomorrow, I'm excited. Jane came over today, which was nice. We watched some shitty movie about a naked girl who saved the world, then banged Bruce Willis. Good Times. We Zangiefed too. Nothing out of the ordinary. I'm pretty tired, I was just reading Harry Potter. Its really good. I'll most likely finish it tomorrow. I haven gone off my property in three days...weird. I need to get out.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:06 PM

Blogger,
Sarah was right, the Blogger is so boring lately. Thats really because I've been steering clear of any drama-causing situation. I hadn't thought about her in 11 days. I counted. So whats new in my life? Well the new computer I ordered was shipped today, and it should be here wednesday, at least thats what they tell me. I had a squabble with Kerry today. Apparently I was judging her and we're not square anymore. I don't understand people, and I fear I never will. Therein lies the problem, for they are who I will be spending my life in company with. Today I learned to play One by MetallicA. Its an amazing song. I actually can't play the solo, but I'm working on it. So thats pretty much it for today. Boring as usual. Just remember, this isn't for you, i write for myself. If you don't like it, by all means, Don't read it. Good night.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:51 PM

Blogger,
I did so much today, oh man. I woke up at like 5:30 and started reading Harry Potter. Its really really good so far, I'm almost done, I'll most likely finish it tomorrow. Then I went with dad and Kevin to drop Kevin off at Basketball camp at West Point. We then drove into New Windsor and visited our old house and saw how they built 900 homes on Mt. Airy road. It used to be a field, and I used to go sledding there, and now it's become subject to the horrors of Suburbia. I also saw someone who I never thought i'd see again. For some reason I can't talk about this person without thinking about every single event of my childhood, and when I do I want to cry. I don't know why. Its a weird thing. I only saw this person from a distance but I immediately recognized who it was, and I bolted. So after my near remeniscent experience, We went to Phil and Neil's, and it was so good. Densest lasagna I've ever eaten. Seriously. So now I think I need to sleep some, I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow besides read Harry Potter. I'm on summer vacation. w00t w00t.

Mood: Herploikady.
Music: Dave Matthews Band - Pig.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:40 PM