[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, September 27, 2003]

Blogger,
Last night Danielle and I watched Liar liar. Thats such a funny movie. I came home at like 10:00 and crashed bandicoot style. I was so tired, and so looking foward to sleeping. Amy decided to call at 1:45 and scream into my answering machine. I didn't feel like answering, and I couldn't fall asleep again. I was somewhat miffed at her this morning for ruining my night, but thats just what she does. I went to work at 9:00 this morning and stayed till 4:00. Danielle and her mom came to visit me, and Kara came by afterwards at 4:00 but we didn't hang out or anything. I didn't feel like it. There was a parade in town, it was raining, and I was standing for 7 hours on 3 hours of sleep. I'm thinking about going to bed right now actually. I'm so tired. Maybe I'll just take a nap or something. I didn't go to the salmon-fest thing either. Melissa called me at like 5:00 to see if I wanted to, but I'm just too tired. Chances are i won't be getting out of this chair for another 2 hours. I have to work again tomorrow from 10:00 to 2:00. Thats not that bad, all I have to do is open up, and then I just chill for a few hours until the afternoon guy comes in. I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow. I actually have alot of homework I should really be doing, but I doubt it. I have to write two essays for history, take notes o na story for english, and write something for religion. Maybe I'll get it over with tonight or something I guess. I think I'm just going to play pokemon now though.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:04 PM

Blogger,
It was a pretty slow day. Nothing exciting happened. Tonite is the huge party for all the seniors. I'm going over to Danielle's to watch movies woth her and Liz. I have to work tomorrow 9-4. That sucks. It also means I'm going to miss the salmon fest at Krista's house, and I can't go over Joey's. I don't like this whole working thing. At least I get paid this week. Next weekend Mirrodin comes out, and Zack, Dan, and I are going to buy a box of boosters. I really want a Soul Foundry. Well, its movie time. Later.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:28 PM

Blogger,
Another day in the life. I was so tired after lunch today. I almost fell asleep in Law. I could barely keep my eyes open. I'm really starting to think that I should be sleeping 16 hours a day. I sleep 9 hour nights and I'm still tired. I don't get it. So today I started playing Pokemon Blue over again. Lendl borrowed it last year and he erased my game, so now I have to beat it again. I just have to. I have Squirtle, Rattata, and Pidgey on level ten and I played for like a half hour. I'm awesome at Pokemon. I just need to get an Abra and I'm golden. Thankfully, tomorrow is Friday. I will be so happy when tomorrow is over. Back to Pokemon now.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:30 PM

Blogger,
So I'm in emo-hulk mode. This has got me down and halfway out the door. I was in a daze today. It's uncanny what repercussions a little thing like a family breaking up can have on a person. I can't communicate with Kevin at all. The kid has no brains at all. I'm in the middle of talking to him and he starts barking like a dog, or doing "karate" or staring off into space. I feel so alone in this house. I feel so alone in general. I've been drifting from the people I call friends lately. I've become the emotionally distant jerk that got me fired last time I applied for this job. I should really go study for this chemistry test tomorrow. It's going to completely bend me over. Oh, I almost forgot. Saves The Day and Taking Back Sunday played the Chance on the 17th. I missed it. I'm mad. RAWR.

Gravedigger..
When you dig my grave,
can you make it shallow,
so i can feel the rain?

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:30 PM

There's a beautiful sky tonight and
if you were by my side then we could share it but your gone.
So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars
cause nothing matters anymore.
If I could only see you now for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
What has he got that I don't have?
Is it his brown eyes?
I know blue eyes get boring but I'll wear dark glasses all the time and
hey if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes.
If I could only see you now for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
what has he got that I don't have?
Is it his brown eyes?
Well, I'll give you a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish.
Like the one year of my life that I gave to you and
now you put me through hell.
You break me up.
I should hate you, but I can't replace you in my heart.
Why am I so pathetic?
I don't get it why you won't return my calls.
Can't you look at me once?
And please if you got a minute,
enjoy this lonely sky with me.
It'll swallow us whole if we only let it.
If I could only see you now for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
what has he got that I don't have?
Is it his brown eyes?
Well, I'll give a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish.
Like the one year of my life that I gave to you and
now you put me through hell.
You break me up.
If this sky's going to eat us then I'd like to be digested into a million pieces with you.
I'd love to be scattered to hell with you.
To hell with you.
Saves The Day - Sell My Old Clothes, I'm Off to Heaven.
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:46 PM

Blogger,
Today was very dull. It rained all day. We did another lab in chem. At this rate, we'll fil the year's quota in the first quarter. I taped that show "One Tree Hill" and I'm going to watch it tomorrow when I get home. Its supposed to be really good. I need to go to bed now. Kerry is a fucking vampire. I give up. Just for the record, Meghan Oretsky=cool. Peace out.

Don't hurt me, I'm emo

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:05 PM

Blogger,
Wow, I almost forgot to post. In short, today sucked badly. Melissa wasn't in school, so that was one less happy face in my day. In chem we did another stupid lab, and I can't stand these labs. Religion test was nothing too hard, and I slept for 40 minuites while everyone else was finishing the test. It felt really good to do good on a religion test. That there god must not have been paying attention and didn't sabatoge my life for 10 minuites. I slept through most of math and history. Lunch was stupid. CJ is annoying. The afternoon went by in like 3 seconds as usual. The bus ride home is so long. I hate it. I lost to Marty in Yu-Gi-Oh like 4 times. I'm getting tired of that game. Tomorrow I'm going to totally house him in Pokemon though. theres nothing he can do to stop my strategy of Mr. Mime and Alakazam and Chansey. So unbeatable. I'm going to try to bring back all the cool fad games and have a party with all of them. So, if you have any Pokemon cards, Tomagotchi's and/or pogs you'd like to donate to me, I would be eternally grateful.
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So my dad came home today at like 4:00 and I didn't even talk to him until 5 minutes ago when I told him I'm going to bed. He keeps asking me, "Whats wrong? You look sad. Are you on drugs?" I'm at the point right now where everyone annoys me if I'm around them for more than 5 seconds and he was really annoying me, and I just told him to go away and closed the door in his face. I feel bad about that now. Michele called right when he got home and was complaining about something and they got into a huge screaming fight. I seriously wish she would just go away and not come back. I'm reiterating I know, but its still how I feel. Lately I feel like I can't talk to anyone either. I don't really talk to Amy anymore, I called Carolyn before but I just felt weird talking to her. I'm too cheesy to talk to Melissa, and its just weird to open up to another guy. I suppose thats why I write in Blogger. In english class last week we read an excerpt from some colonist's journal. Mrs Lynch said he kept the journal with the intent of publishing it later on. I don't know if I'd ever publish Blogger, although I really have. Every day I make the entries public, But I don't usually gear them to be read by everyone out there. I need to write more. I'm such a slacker. I need to do alot of things with my life. I'm wasting air rihgt now. Shit, its late. Kerry probably already went to bed, so I believe I should turn in as well. Good night Blogger.

Mood: Blarg.
Music: Jimmy Eat World - Authority Song.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:22 PM

Blogger,
Today was exciting. I worked from 10:00-2:00. I got to play with lobsters, big knives, and I went and loitered in Jean Claudes. Later Zack and Dan Enders came over. We played Magic and I owned I got Teeka's Dragon, another Dragon Mage, and Dragon Roost. Holler that. We played 3-way, and I won twice, then they ganged up on me. I could have won, but I just killed Dan to spite him. Cool kids they are, but I trounced them none the less.
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Mom called today. She's having a grand ol' time down at the shore, and I don't like it. Sometimes I wish she wouldn't call. Some people, on the other hand, I wish would call more often. I'm a very negligent person, and I wish the poeple who've known me for a long time would realize that.
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Speaking of Power Puff Girls, what was the professor doing making girls anyway?
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Like the thought organization? Yeah, so do I. My head is really clutterd right now and I though this would help, but it turns out its making it worse. Many things are going through my head right now. These include but are not limited to the following: Magic, Pokemon, Yu-Gi-Oh, Soul Caliber, Stone Sour - Bother, Kara, Jane, If snake eyes fought storm shadow, who would win assuming the goodguy doesn't always win?, and why the hell Michele is who she is. I'm done. Peace out.

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place, an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face
I just made love with your sweet memory
One thousand times in my head
You said you loved it more than ever
You said
You remain, turned away
Turning further every day
I talked for hours to your wallet photograph
And you just listened
You left enchanted by my intellect
Or maybe you didn't
Do you believe what I sing now?

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:22 PM