[Penny for my thought ]

[Friday, October 10, 2003]

Blogger,
First off, the pep rally was total crap. One, there are too many fat cheerleaders. They are all so unfortunate looking. Except Kerry. I love Kerry. Two, football isn't as great as they make it out to be. The team is 0-7, give up now. Three, the faculty sucks at volleyball. Dress down days are always nice because you get to see who the posers are. So many kids (guys) wear earings and they really need to not. Also, you get to see girls in tight shirts and it's like: "Whoa, you have boobs?" Crazy stuff. So, after school I went to see School of Rock. I am officially mad at music right now. Right now music is my "The Man." The movie was decent. It wasn't as good as it was made out to be. It started out so-o-o-o-o slow, but the ending was really good. After the movie (and why I'm mad at music) I went to Hot Topic because Conor said they have the kimono there. I asked the guy who works there if they had it and he was like "No, DUDE we don't have that shit here." Meanwhile, they definitely had the Trinity leather jumpsuit hanging up. So then I asked him if they sold big emo glasses and he replied: "Emo is for pussies." I swear I will never again set foot in a Hot Topic. I also hate the "punk rock" image. It makes me mad that everyone within that stereotype has gone evil. They were all fickle and mean. What happened to the love of the music? Thats what it used to be about: the music. Now its about being the dejected shit-stick handed portion of society and moping about problems and being what they think is "emo" but is really just being fucking stupid. I liked this whole genre and look because it represented people who liked people. Now they seem to be just a bunch of stupid stoners. So basically if you're a hater trying to be a punker: fuck you. Besides the hate, I bought 3 Kenshin figures at Suncoast. I love Suncoast. I also bought Kingdom Hearts. I need to go to bed now because I have to work tomorrow. Peace out.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:23 PM

Blogger,
Bad day. First off, I fell asleep at 8:00 last night. Luckily I taped Smallville. I was having this odd dream (In the third person) that I was sleeping and Jess Roberts was shaking me going "Steve! You're oversleeping! Get up or you're going to miss the bus!" I then wake up to find it's 6:20. I usually wake up at 5:45. I hate dreaming. Always bad, even when it involves a complete hottie like Jess. So anyway, school was bad today too. I had two tests, but i think I did ok on them. I forsee this as a good weekend. Tomorrow I'm going to see School of Rock after school. I only have to work until 2:00 on both Saturday and Sunday, and Saturday night I'm going to hooters for Hannah and Dale's birthday party. Sunday I'm staying over the O'donnell's and we're filming a movie, and then Monday I have off. Here's to hoping nothing horrible happens.

Breathing in your skin tonight.
Quiet is my loudest cry.
Wouldn't wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside.
And if it's healthier to leave you be.
May a sickness come and set me free.
Kill me while i still believe that you were meant for me.


---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:43 PM

Blogger,
I'm in sad mode right now. I was very angry/annoyed/saddened today. I get the feeling people are just using me. Lately people I felt that I was very close too have just been flaking on me. Nobody seems to care what I'm doing. I found out today that if I don't try to talk to anyone, nobody tries to talk to me. I'm like parsley. Its like, if you go to a restaurant and order a dinner and they forget to put parsley on the plate, you aren't going to send it back and demand parsley are you? Exactly. And you would never order something and ask to "hold the parsley." Its just kind of there. Thats how I feel right now. I'm just kind of...there. I hate going to school, I really do. If I had the option to go live on a deserted island, I'd take it. I know its not the first time I've said that, and I know it won't be the last. I'm going to sleep now, I hope I don't wake up.

Mood: Fuck you.
Music: Everclear - Wonderful.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:51 PM

Standing here
The old man said to me,
"Long before these crowded streets
Here stood my dreaming tree."
Below it he would sit
For hours at a time
Now progress takes away
What forever took to find
And now he's falling hard
He feels the falling dark
How he longs to be
Beneath his dreaming tree

Conquered fear to climb
A moment froze in time
When the girl who first he kissed
Promised him she'd be his
Remembered mother's words
There beneath the tree
"No matter what the world
You'll always be my baby."
"Mommy come quick,
The dreaming tree has died."
The air is growing thick
A fear he cannot hide
The dreaming tree has died

Oh, have you no pity?
This thing I do
I do not deny it
All through this smile
As crooked as danger
I do not deny
I know in my mind
I would leave you now
If I had the strength to
I would leave you up
To your own devices
Will you not talk?
Can you take pity?
I don't ask much
But won't you speak, please?

From the start
She knew she had it made
Easy up 'til then
For sure she'd make the grade
Adorers came in hordes
To lay down in her wake
Gave it all she had
But treasures slowly fade
Now she's falling hard
Feels the fall of dark
How did this fall apart?
She drinks to fill it up
A smile of sweetest flowers
Wilted so and soured
Black tears stain the cheeks
That once were so admired
She thinks when she was small
There on her father's knee
How he had promised her,
"You'll always be my baby."
"Daddy come quick,
The dreaming tree has died
I can't find my way home
There is no place to hide
The dreaming tree has died."

Oh, if I had the strength to
I would leave you up
To your own devices
Will you not talk?
Can you take pity?
I don't ask much
But won't you speak, please?

Take me back, take me back, take me back...

Save me please.

Dave Matthews Band - The Dreaming Tree
[Posted by Stephen] at 4:31 PM

Blogger,
I love Melissa Picarello for many reasons, and these are only ten of them:

TiNyDaNceR783: Top 10 reasons to date a dancer:
10. We're not delicate and fragile as we look.
9. We perform great under pressure.
8. We have great technique.
7. We have good rhythm.
6. We dont mind a little competiion; we work hard to get what we want.
5. We dont mind gettin hot and sweaty.
4. We have excellent stamina; we can go for hours.
3. We can totally rock spandex tights.
2. We can do it in ANY position; we're very flexible.
1. Dancing is a vertical expression of a horizontal desire...

Today was a pretty uneventful day. I saw Meghan's face, which was cool. I'm listening to Anti-Flag right now in honor of this wondrous occasion. I left school early to go to the orthodontist. no new news on that front; I'm going to have braces until I'm 35. On the way home we stopped at Winn. I got a Platnum Angel. Zack is going to be so pissed. Poor kid, all he wanted was that card. One tree hill is on tonight. I really like that show. I'm going to watch it now.

Mood: Complacent.
Music: Anti-Flag - Drink Drank Punk

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:47 PM

Blogger,
I knew a great day would be followed by a shitty one. I failed a religion test, I didn't do the math homework, certain people are really pissing me off, and I just plain don't want to go to Burke anymore. I really wish I could just not go to school. I hate it so much. When I came home I just chilled. Krista said she was coming over, but didn't. What a fucking tease she is. Cassie called me also; I miss her alot. She's such a rebel, she was the bad influence in my life, and now she's gone. It's saddening. I'm listening to Weezer again. In the Garage is my song. I seriously just want to chill in the garage and play Dungeons and Dragons, or Magic, or anything. I'm going to bed early tonight because I was up late last night. Later.

Mood: Blah.
Music: Matchbook Romance - Cream Soda

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:39 PM

Blogger,
Today at 4:48 P.M. Eastern Standard Time, I completely and utterly ownzored Daniel Enders in Magic. I manifested the ultimate strategy of my dragon deck. First, he completely screwed me by playing his Scion of Darkness and stealing my Zirilan of the Claw, but then I played 2 Megrim's and then I played Dragon Mage, and used Relentless Assault. Yeah, that was 38 damage in one turn. I was so proud of myself you have no idea. So in other news, the box we got was freaking great. I got another Soul Foundry, War Elemental, and some amazing other cards. I'm so happy right now. I'm a dork in his glory. Just as I was typing this I thought to myself: "Everything can't go my way today, something bad has to happen." Sure enough, Meghan tells me she's cutting her hair really short. I don't like this. So to get even, I'm going to cut my hair really short. That'll show her. I have to cut this entry short because I have to go eat dinner, then I have to do homework. Tarzan is on tonight. Holler. Ok, good bye.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 5:51 PM