[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, December 13, 2003]

Blogger,
I didn't watch cartoons this morning. I don't know why, but I just didn't. Melissa blew me off today. I knew she would. We went to the mall anyway. I saw like twenty Burke people there, it was rediculous. I saw DG and The Oburn too. DG invited me to her New Year's Eve party. We didn't go to the movies like we were going to. I bought Kevin a Christmas present. In other news, I made a new friend. Actually, Meghan made me a new friend. Ashley Galante is her name; she's the sister of Meghan Galante. Yes, the Meghan Galante whose artwork I am enamored with. That is, assuming enamored means in love with like i think it does. Anyway, she's pretty cool. My Magic cards that I ordered from Anycraze.com came today. I rebuilt some of my decks. I made a green and red dragon deck, and my trademark black and blue control deck. I need to make a deck specifically for multiplayer for school. I'm thinking white and red. Serra's blessing and direct damage should work well.

Mood: meh.
Music: 40 Foot Echo - Save Me

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 11:47 PM

Blogger,
So I'm going to Semi without a date. Amy is my "date" but just because she can't bring Greg. I don't really mind, it's not like I was going to bring anyone anyway. I suppose I could have asked Krista, but I'm not going to. I'll have fun on my own. Today was a pep rally. It was amusing. The seniors crushed the faculty in basketball. Pretty uneventful day otherwise. There are a few things that are bothering me, however.
1) I didn't go to Mal's going away party tonight because I'm a stupid fucking loser, and so is my little brother whom I had to babysit.
2) I don't have a date to Semi, so I'm going with Amy.
3) Danielle Sullivan is the most perfect girl in the entire world, and she'll never like me as more than a friend.
4) Kerry is not going away anytime soon
5) I saw Melissa and Matt kissing today. Twice. It hurt me inside really bad.
6) I can never tell anyone about that last one.
My heart is thrice broken.

Mood: Heart shredded, torn asunder...
Music: Stroke 9 - Tear Me Apart

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:09 PM

Blogger,
Good evening. Yesterday I went to the orthodontist, and apparently theres no end in sight for these metal things in my mouth. I hate teeth. Today was my gym day. We played basketball in second period and kickball in fourth. I'm becoming such an uncoordinated blob. I'm horrible at backetball. It makes me sad. I made a pork roast for dinner. It was really good. Michele comes here every day, and I really wish she wouldn't. She's so annoying. Tomorrow I'm staying after to play Magic with the usual crew. I have hard-core insomnia. I haven't slept at all the past few nights. I've gotten maybe 10 hours over the past 4 nights. I used to have 10 hours a night. I think I like Danielle. I'm not asking Jeanette to semi because I just lost all intrest in her. Amy insists that I be her date. I don't know if I really want to go anymore. *sigh*

Mood: Meh.
Music: Brand New - Jude Law and a Semester Abroad.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:32 PM

Blogger,
Wow I just realized I didn't write about the past two days. Saturday was a nothing day, we got a foot of snow, so I stayed home. I just watched movies and stuff all day. Sunday I went to Melissa's birthday party. Her whole family was there, and then there was me, Mallory, and Krista. We had fun, we watched Monty Python, we had cake. Today I just hung out. I watched "Red Planet." At like 3:00 I went to Krista's. Kristen came too. I think I like her. I was all jittery around her today. I hope she doesn't think I'm a total weirdo because of it. I need to get it together. I keep thinking about Kerry every time I think about girls. It's horrible. I'm going to ask Jeanette to the semi-formal dance. I don't know her at all but Melissa says she's cool. I trust her. My hands hurt. I think I have carpal tunnel, so don't be surprised if I don't write every day anymore.

Mood: meh.
Music: Rufio - Still

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:34 PM

Blogger,
Quiz time!

x. birthday = February 14
x. piercings = none
x. tattoos = none...yet
x. shoe size = 10.5
x. hair color = dark brown
x. length = Beatle-ish
x. siblings = 1 brother
x. pets = 1 brother
x. clothing = taz PJ pants

`this or that...
x. Nice smiles or nice eyes? Eyes. They are the window to the soul.
x. Jeans or skirts? jeans
x. Boots or sneakers? sneakers
x. Natural or make-up? Natural
x. Restaurants or fast food? Restaurants
x. Italian food or Chinese? Chinese, definitely
x. Dark or light eyes? Dark
x. Streaked or dyed hair? Streaked
x. Vampires or Gods? I'm the god of vampires.
x. Shakespeare or Greek mythology? Greek Mythology
x. Milk shakes or floats? My milkshake is better than yours.
x. Drugs or cigarettes? Life is a drug
x. Football or cheerleading? Boo both!!! especially Bukre football cheerleaders.
x. Cake or pie? Cake.

`how...?pick...
x. Do you want to die? Never
x. Cremated or buried? Taxedermized.
x. Do you brush your teeth? On occasion.
x. Much time do you take to dress up? not much at all
x. Do you like your life? sometimes
x. Common or original is this survey? nothing I haven't seen before
x. Often do you smile? All the time, but not on the inside.
x. Do you eat junk food? Sometimes.

Do you..
x. Sing? no.
x. Dance? no.
x. Laugh a lot? no.
x. Like spicy food? no.
x. Prefer bagels over yogurt? yeah
x. Think babies are cute? I hate kids.
x. Children in general? i hate kids, thanks karate.
x. Believe in fortune cookies? yes.
x. Believe in life after love? yeah, but it sucks.
x. Believe that anything is possible? of course
x. Believe that everyone has a purpose in life? everyone has a purpose, some just choose to not fulfill it.
x. Know what yours is? nope.
x. You a girl? nope
x. You a comedian? i've been told im funny, but i dont think its true.
x. You bored? yeah, why else would i be doing this.

`describe...
x. Your usual outfit: Not jeans, a tee shirt and my favorite converse shoes.
x. Your hair : messy
x. Your eyes : black
x. What you like to change about yourself: I'm a gargoyle. I wish I was pretty.
x. Hate too much of a strong word? if you mean it, then say it.
x. Food from other cultures good? yeah, definitely
x. Your mood calm at the moment? not really

`last...
x. movie you rented = Dreamcatcher
x. movie you bought = The Lion King for Melissa.
x. song you listened to = Cake - Never There
x. song that was stuck in your head = The Milkshake Song. God I hate Kelis.
x. song you've downloaded = The Milkshake Song. Erg. Kelis. Die.
x. cd you bought = I haven't bought a CD since 2000
x. cd you listened to = Rufio!
x. person you've called = Amy
x. person that's called you = Amy
x. tv show you've watched = One Tree Hill
x. person you were thinking of = Kerry. :-(

`do...
x. you have a bf or gf = No, I'm still not over her.
x. you have a crush on someone = I'm not over Kerry. I miss her still.
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = anywhere but here
x. you think about suicide = I'd never do it, but yes, all the time actually.
x. you believe in online dating = nope
x. you want more piercings = nope
x. you smoke = nope
x. you like cleaning = nope
x. you like roller coasters = yessir
x. you write in cursive or print = Print.
x. you carry a donor card = No.

`for or against..
x. long distance relationships = Against
x. suicide = If that's what you really want, go ahead, I'm not going to stop you.
x. killing people = For the greater good, yes.
x. teenage smoking = Go ahead, fuck up your life.
x. doing drugs = Same as above.
x. driving drunk = Stupid.
x. soap operas = only in spanish.

best..
x. gum = winterfresh
x. tv show = Everwood.
x. thing in the world = The feeling you get when you've spent an entire day with someone you love, and you know they're going to be there again tomorrow.
x. thing to collect = Broken hearts.
x. colors of all time = black, green, white.
x. thing to do on a rainy day = Draw.
x. feeling in the world = knowing you matter to someone.

`favorite..
x. food = lasagna
x. song = Rufio - White Lights
x. thing to do = play guitar and/or magic
x. thing to talk about = life
x. sports = tennis, manhunt, kick the kid with one shoe
x. drinks = iced tea
x. stores = EB games, Winn
x. picture = Snoop dog and Ca Rule
x. movies = office space, almost famous.
x. holiday = I hate holidays.
x. cars = Shelby Cobra. *drool*

`have you...
x. ever cried over a guy/girl = Krista, 8th grade, 1 tear.
x. ever lied to someone = yeah.
x. ever been in a fist fight = nope.
x. ever been arrested = no
x. shampoo do you use = whatever's in there
x. perfume do you use = none.
x. shoes do you wear = chuck taylors
x. are you scared of = nothing.


'number...
x. of times I have been in love?: 2
x. of continents I have lived in?: 1
x. of drugs taken illegally: LSD once, and totally inadvertantly
x. of people from middle school that I stay in contact with?: 4-5 that don't go to my high school.
x. of cd's that I own?: too many
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: tons, for tennis.
x. of scars on my body?: there are more on my heart.
x. of things in my past that I regret? there are too many.

' in the last 24 hrs have you
x. cried? no
x. fallen? no
x. eaten? ya
x. given someone a hug? yes
x. kissed someone on the cheek? no
x. really kissed someone? no
x. regreted something? always
x. bought something? no
x. told someone you loved them? no
x. told someone you hated them? no
x. stolen something? no
x. had something stolen from you? no
x. hit someone? yeah
x. slept? yeah
x. yelled at someone? yeah

' current
x. clothing? Taz pants still.
x. music? Oasis - Wonderwall
x. thought? i need to finish this question
x. drink? nothing
x. time? 8:14
x. talking to? no one
x. chatting with? no one
x. buddies online? tons

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:14 AM