[Penny for my thought ]

[Saturday, January 03, 2004]

Blogger,
I'm feeling somewhat Emo today. Actually, to tell the truth, I'm not even the slightest bit Emo today. Last night I had a dream. It was horribly violent and grotesque and ended with me ripping off the head of a former lover and drinking her blood. I hate having dreams. They seem to have shifted from premonition to dark inner desire as of late. I haven't done anything violent in so long, and I fear it's welling up inside of me. I really don't want to kill anyone, but deep down inside theres a part of me who wants to rend you limb from limb and drink your blood and feast on your innards. I feel this insatiable bloodlust will lead to something sinister someday. I suppose maybe I just need a new hobby or something.
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Bloodlust aside, I spent today contemplating my violent nature. I started out the morningkilling off all my robots one by one. Breakfast at the Goshen Diner yeilded conversation concerning what I want to do with my life. I've decided to look into engineering colleges. I'm most likely going to study Aerospace Engineering and join either the Air Force or Marines. It's inevitable that man's ingrained design for destruction will ultimately lead to our downfall, so I figure rather than attempt to delay the inevitable, I'll aid in the process. I'm personally opposed to violence, but I've no qualms about providing the means for others to do so. So long as it's not diverted towards myself, of course. Upon returning home, I resumed the destruction of my robot companions while watching Transformers: The Movie. Dinner was chinese takeout, followed by some leftover chocolates from Dad's christmas party. After dinner, I watched Kate and Leopold. It was a touching story really. It got me thinking about the whole "love" thing. I believe it exists, yet it's very elusive. I believe there's someone for everyone, but I don't believe they always find eachother. It's a sad thing, love. I don't believe I'll ever find it, so I'm not going to bother looking for it. I'm just going to knit this sweater and grow out my hair.

s m ASH 8198: we both are emo kids stephen
s m ASH 8198: smile stephen
s m ASH 8198: *hug*

Mood: Disheartened, frightened, and just plain down.
Music: REM - Man on the Moon.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:47 PM

Blogger,
I'm very irked. I wrote a long post last night, and for the first time in months didn't copy and save it before I hit publish, and it wasn't saved. I had no way to get it back. Exactly what I didn't need was to have it gone. So now you get the stripped down version. Yesterday I saw Paycheck with Danny and Stephen Enders. Here come the spoilers. It was a really good movie, but only if you never saw Batman Forever, Minority Reoprt, and/or The Bourne Identity...oh, and Daredevil. First off, Ben Afflack was Matt Murdock in the movie. He was the same suave big-city bachelor . The only difference was that he wasn't blind. Uma Thurman was a biologist who worked in a huge lab with thousands of plants hanging everywhere. Poison Ivy much? The whole thing with the memory loss was SO Bourne Identity. The thing that really annoyed me was how similair it was to Minority Report, which is one of my favorite movies ever. The first scene when he's doing work on the giant floating computer screen, and begins moving the pieces around with the pens is just like the glove they used in Minority Report. Not to mention the basic plot point of him running from his employer because of what they see in the future. Also he's running with a girl, and the part with the balloons, that was very precog: "Stop here and wait behind the balloons so they don't have a clear shot" -esque. Also, the head of the FBI chasing him was the guy who invented skynet in Terminator 2. When he took the watch at the end, I figured he'd use the advanced technology in it to create the instrument of destruction known as Skynet. All these things aside, it was a very good movie. Albeit unoriginal, I reccommend you go see it. It was worth seven bucks, or in my case, $5.75 for the matinee. After the movie, the boys and I played Magic, and messed around with the Transformers. Today all I've done has been to watch old TV shows I've taped, and write this post. 'Tis a dreary existance I lead. I should really do some homework, considering there are now only two days left in vacation.

Mood: Blah
Music: The Calling - Wherever You Will Go

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 5:02 PM

Blogger,
Look at that, it's New Years Day. I personally don't understand the whole new years thing. Technically every single day is the start of the new year if you think about it, a year ago it was the same date, and now it's a day after that. The only reason this one is different is because it's the last day on the calender. Now you have to go buy a new calendar. I don't understand New Years. It's probably because I don't see time as linear so much as it is cyclical. What once was, will inevitably happen again. There's really no cause to celebrate, for there is no point in which the cycle begins anew. It's a constant flow. A circle, with no beginning, and no end. Call me a pessimist, call me a Grinch, I could care less.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"
-Dr. Seuss

Holidays suck. Except Arbor Day. I'll plant a tree on Arbor Day. Since I'm subject to society's rules, and am forced to recognize today as the first day of a new year, I suppose I should make a resolution. I actually have a few. They are:
1) Stop thinking girls are cool
2) Get fat
3) Play more video games
4) Be more optimistic

D1sney Princess: steve u take the fun outta new years

Glad I could help.

SeXy Xt: i dont know how you cant see a point in celebrating. new years is the calendars way of giving you a whole new chance. old grades and fights, old boyfiends and girlfriends are now "last years". moving on is easier, and new goals seem so much more attainable in the new year. new years gives closure and contentness to people who have struggled. those who have lost now can move past thier problems and look to gain. new years is to the calendar year as easter is to the christian year, a time when mistakes are forgiven and change is made. new years takes the saying "today is the begining of the rest of your life" and applys it to an entire year.

Funny how grades, fights, boyfriends and girlfriends become "last years" over summer vacation. Why doesn't Dick Clark have a rockin party for that? I'm sorry SeXy Xt but I have to make an example out of you.

Cprompt JoeSN: first of all
Cprompt JoeSN: the new christain year is advent
Cprompt JoeSN: second of all
Cprompt JoeSN: "o man, its a new year!! all my problems are gone"
Cprompt JoeSN: POOF
Cprompt JoeSN: they vanished
Cprompt JoeSN: bacause a ball dropped in NYC
Cprompt JoeSN: The only time my problems went away because of a ball dropping was when i went through puberty

Good man Joey, good man. In conclusion, I'd like to wish all you media-driven calendar whores a happy new year. What are you up to, two thousand and four? Here's to another two thousand and four. May the world not end on your birthday.

Mood: Blah
Music: The Offspring - Defy You

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 9:44 AM

Blogger,
It's the last day of the year, so I'm eating as many cookies as I can. Anyway, I was supposed to go to Joeys three hours ago, but we're having problems with the plumbing. Our hot water heater is broken, and is being repaired as we speak, so I can't go to Joey's yet. I watched Mortal Kombat while waiting for the plumber to finish. That's one of the best movies ever. If ever there was a Dragonball Z movie, Lou Kang should be Goku, and Shang Tsung should be Vegeta. Jet Li could be Gohan. I'm going to go see about getting to Joey's now. I'll have a nice post tomorrow about resolutions and the like.

Mood: Anxious.
Music: The Strokes 12:51

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 4:41 PM

Blogger,
I just got back from Krista's. We had movie night. Cast: Jackie, Kristen, Krista, Danielle, Danny, Anthony, and myself. Movie: The Breakfast Club. From what I saw of it, it was pretty good. After the movie we all ran away into the basement, sang kareoke, played pool and fooseball, and some clapping game i didn't really understand. I think between today and yesterday Danielle and I both found out what pisses us off. I fucking hate it when people take my stuff without asking. She took some magic cards of mine, and that really ticks me off the most. I value my cards alot, and I've worked out alot of trades to get the ones I want, and I really hate it when people take them. It also bothers me when two people become friends and feel the need to aact exactly alike. Danielle acts like Krista all the time and THAT really annoys me. Today I think she actually got mad at me too. I was being my normal talk-too-much self and she was like "shut up" and she said it angerly enough that I stopped talking and everything got quiet. Then Krista tripped over something and fell and all was normal again. So in conclusion, I still love Danielle to death, but she really pisses me off sometimes. The end.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 11:58 PM

Blogger,
When we last left off, our hero was bored out of his brain and taking four hundred thousand quizes. After the boredom ceased, Danny Enders came over. We chilled, played Magic, Transformers, you know the drill. At around 4:30 Daniele came over and we resumed the Magicing. Krista dropped by also. At 6:00 everyone cleared out. I ate dinner, cleaned up, did the dishes, and then resumed the story.
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It turned out, there was no way to defeat Unicron. He was too powerful. Optimus Primal was the last to fall. Sandrock, realizing that the Worldslayer was the only hope for the realm, scaled the mountain to confer with The Source. They were reluctant to relinquish the sword, for this would mark the third destruction cycle as of yet. They instead bestowed upon him the Sword of Strength. He grasped the weapon in his metalic hands, power surging through his mechanical veins. When he confronted Unicron, it was nothing he expected. The sword of Power did little to sway the inevitable outcome. He was throoughly trounced by the Ruiner of Worlds. Unicron didn't bother making sure he was destroyed, which was foolish of him. Sandrock painstakingly scaled the mountain to it's peak. Seeing that the Sword of Might did not phase the Rampant Tyrant, Sandrock was given the Worldslayer. He tumbled down the mountain, the demonic sword ever draining the life from him. He reached the ground, and was about to plunge the sword into the Earth beneath him...but he failed. He had not the strength to do it. Twice before had he ended the lives of so many in mere seconds. He could not bring himself to do it a third time. Seeing this as an ideal opportunity, Sauron descended from his tower. He snatched the worldslayer from the hands of Sandrock and drove the cold steel into his own dark heart.
The explosion that followed shook the entire multiverse. Sauron had merged with the sword itself, obiterating all life in the entire quadrant. Unfortunately, the threat of Unicron was not neutralized. In the seconds before the blast, a powerful demon, riding atop a blazing steed swooped in and cut a deal with Unicron. He spoke through telepathy, so as to keep his plan a complete secret. "If you come with me, you will avoid your defeat. You will remain out of action for two cycles, but it will pay off, for when you return you will be lord of this realm." Unicron pondered the proposition, and agreed. A fellow demon would not lie to him, and if he was telling a mis-truth he would pay dearly indeed. The mysterious entity brought Unicron into the depths of Hades, and there they remain.
Now, all is calm. A lone sword remains on the expanse that was once cluttered with so many corpses left in the wake of destruction. It pulses with an evil energy and waits for someone to grasp it's hilt and unleash it's fury elsewhere. Sauron's body has vanished. The only lifeform left is Snake Eyes, trapped inside his own stasis pod...
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I didn't really do anything today. I started my homework. I read comic books. I'm going to Krista's tonight, so that'll add some excitement to my day. Meghan said she'd come over, but never did because she was too busy making love to Smashley. What a lesbo. I heart her so much, though. I'll write more later mayhaps.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 5:25 PM

Blogger,
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---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 8:44 AM

Blogger,
Vacation is half over and I haven't accomplished anything yet. Today I watched more Beast Wars, the Spawn movie I got, and then dad came in and we watched Cheech and Chong Go Up in Smoke. He's an odd person, my father, let me tell you. His favorite movies are Cheech and Chong, Half Baked, and Traffic. I asked him if he'd ever light up with me, and he just told me to go to my room. Today Unicron killed all the gundams, Optimus Prime, Megatron, and basically every other guy in my room. Things look dismal for our heros. The only resistance remaining is the ninja troop consisting of 6 GI Joes, and Sauron. He allies with no one, and that will be his downfall, for he cannot face Unicron alone. Tomorrow Denders is coming over and bringing reinforcements from the outside. Tomorrow is going to be an epic.

Mood: Autobots! Transform and roll out!
Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Parallel Universe

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:04 PM