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[Friday, January 23, 2004]

Blogger,
Some sad depressing quizes and other things of the like:


You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.

*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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That one was dead on.


Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli'
sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally. It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.

What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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I've never seen that movie.


You're a Creepy Bookworm!
You know where the guy that just looked at you from
across the room sleeps. You know what my
favorite color is. You know where your enemies
keep their prized posessions. You know
everything. How you know, we don't know. You
creep me out.

What kind of Crazy are you?
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I don't like that.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:34 PM

Blogger,
Oh what a horrible day this was. I had two midterms this morning: history and pre-calc. History was first, and I was very disappointed with myself. I studied for it for four hours yesterday with Danielle and Melissa, and I still did shitty on it. My DBQ sucked. I put in a lot of outside information, but it didn't feel right. I'm going to estimate that I got in the low 80's on it. Afterwards, I had math. That was a doozy. There were 25 questions, and we only had to answer 20. Now, keep in mind that I'm one of the smarter kids in the class and usually finish his tests in 5-10 minutes and get a 90 or better while the other kids need extra time after the bell. I barely finished 20 questions in the hour and a half we had, it was that hard. I'm going to have a talk with Fr. Byrnes about Mr. Padavano on Monday, because he's got to go. After the math test, I went to get my stuff and see Smashley. We went outside only to discover that the busses had already left. I love being stuck at school. Thankfully, Amy was still there and gave me and Mike Quinn a ride home. In an attempt to cheer myself up, I watched the first episode of Witch Hunter Robin. It was alright. I'm going to watch a few more and see it gets better. The characters are really cool. Robin is a pyrokinetic witch. Good stuff.
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I almost did something really stupid today, something I never would have forgiven myself for. Krista came over at around 2:00. We watched TV, and then went to download some old songs to feel nostalgic. Skipping ahead to the sin: I tried to kiss her. I leaned in to kiss her, and she didn't try to stop me, but then I realized what I was doing and I ran away and hid. I'm such a horrible person, really I am. I wish I had no emotions. It would be so much easier. Rather, I have an awful lot of them, and they're destroying me. I like Ashley, really I do. She's a genuinely good person. A little naive, but still a good person. She's young, so she gets some leeway. I don't want to take advantage of her innocence. I told Krista that we can't see eachother, at least not for a little while. It's for the better.
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Another thing that's been bothering me alot lately is the fact that I don't have any friends I can talk to. In all honesty, nobody cares what I'm feeling. Carolyn doesn't talk to me at all anymore, but I really don't blame her. She has enough problems. Amy is ignorant and biased; I can't talk to her without getting annoyed. She has a superiority complex. The only person who really cares is Melissa, but for some reason, I can never tell her anything. I don't have feelings for her like I used to, but it's still awkward to talk to her. If not for me writing in my Blogger, there would be no record of anything that happens with me. I don't tell anyone anything anymore. I'm starting to slip into depressed emo stephen mode again. I'll see you at the bottom.

Mood: Depressed.
Music: HIM - Right Here in my Arms

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:18 PM

Blogger,
Yesterday Smashley gave me my long overdue Christmas present. It was a Lego kit of the Bespin Cloudcar from Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back. I bult it and flew it around all day. I had the second half of my anatomy midterm, also. It wasn't as easy as part one but I still think I did good on it. I missed Law seventh period because I went to a meeting for the New Vision program at Boces next year. I'm really enthusiastic about it. I stayed up until 12:30 last night watching TV. I watched Smallville, Angel, Chapelle's Show, and The Daily Show. I woke up at 10:00 this morning. Melissa came over at 12:00, and Danielle came over at 1:00. We studied history like whoa. I think we're ready for it tomorrow. I need to go over my own math notes later tonight, and I'm good for the test tomorrow. Cool sucker.

Mood: Ready.
Music: The Doors - The End

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:03 PM

Blogger,
First order of business: Announcements. Today I completely owned. I had such a good day. I had the first half of my anatomy midterm, and I did very well on it. It was 65 questions and we could omit five, and I didn't know only five. I won. Today was a Magic day. I had a feeling nobody would remember to stay after because of the day off and I was right. Only Chris Orengo and I played. We played five games, and I won three of them. Here's the play by play. The first game was his white life deck versus my red sligh deck. He used many Congregates, Opal Titans, Kismet, and walla galore. His high point was 89 life. I used Goblin Charbelcher, Tepheraderm, Tangarth, Talruum Hero, and Dragon Roost and kept his life below 100 for quite a while. Finally, with 10 cards left in my deck, I was able to use relentless assault with me 15 5/5 Dragon Tokens to bring him down after dealing him a whopping 150 damage, while he prevented 115 of it. Son of a bitch. The next game was alot easier, I had a third turn War Elemental thanks to a Seething Song and Kindle. Next turn I played two Firebolts, raising war Elemental to a 5/5, attacked, dealt 5 damage, made him a 10/10, and then next turn I Threatened his wall and layed the smack down right to him. Coincidentally, Marty, who was sitting right next to me playing Yu-Gi-Oh won at that same moment using a Dark Paladin/Jinzo combo. It was beautiful. The next game I lost out of lack of mana. I had 2 mana and lost in 12 turns. I'm proud I was able to stay alive that long, Especially against the black creature destroy deck he was using. We played Two more games in Mr. Debold's room after getting kicked out of the lab at 4:00. I won one, he won one. They weren't exciting or anything, so I'm not going to bother talking about them.
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In other news, there is no other news. I need a title for my Live Journal. I don't like calling it Penny For My Thought v2.0, because it's really not the same as this. I'm brainstorming. I'm thinking about starting to write more about politics now. Seeing as I'm almost of voting age, (although I won't be voting until the election of 2008. I'm actually getting more and more interested in politics. It's fascinating how badly people are running our country. I'm amazed by it. That's a rant for another day, however. I think I'll call the other blogger "The Untied Status Of America." Sounds good right? I bet it's taken, but whatever.
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On the social front, things are running very smoothly. There's still no word about how Carolyn is doing and if she's pregnant or not. I don't much talk to her anymore. I'm very enamored with Ashley. I mean I really, really like her. I get nervous before I talk to her. I'm slightly intimidated by her. Actually, it's the situation that's making me nervous and intimidated. There's so much pressure on me, the older guy. I'm her first serious relationship. I mean, she's been with other guys before, but I'm the first real boyfriend she's going to have. She's going to remember this for her entire life, and compare all future guys to me. That's kind of scary. I'm also brought to a certain degree of stress over her in the respect of "how far to go." I don't want to move things along to quickly in terms of what we do sexually because she is a younging. She's only 15 years old. I'm going to go slow, but not obviously avoid the thing entirely. I haven't been able to kiss her in school, not because she won't let me, but because I feel so much pressure about doing it. Everytime I'm walking with her and we see someone making out, she becomes visibly uncomfortable with it. I know she hates the teeny bopper cheerleaders and their jock boyfriends who make out in the halls between every class, and I don't want her to become what she hates in her mind. I'm not going to leave anything to chance when it comes to us. I really like her. Although she does have her flaws, I can deal with them. She's a genuinely good person, and I respect her for that. Bottom line: I really like her, and I think we can be together forever, or until I leave for college, as long as I don't do anything stupid.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 6:01 PM

Blogger,
I spent the day with my mom today. She came over at 1:00 and farted around like she usually does, making inappropriate comments and whatnot. We went to the mall at around 2:30. Kevin brought Ryan Smith along. We went to see Along Came Polly at the 3:15 show. It was alright, nothing spectacular, but not a waste of time either. It was a mediocre, typical romantic comedy. After the movie we went to Suncoast, and the money burning it's hole in my pocket got the best of me once again, and I bought something. I got the toy of Durge on a swoop bike from Star Wars: Clone Wars the cartoon. I really like the toy, so I was willing to buy it. It was $13.00. I had a $5 gift certificate, so it was only $8. Afterwards, we got rid of Ryan and went to eat at the food court. The whole time I was eating there was some weird, dirty looking guy all the way across the room, and he kept staring at me. I didn't look at him, but I knew he was staring. I caught his eye once, and immediately looked away. Seconds later, he was standing next to me. He dropped a ten dollar bill on the table next to me, and said "Here ya go, you look like a good kid. Have a nice day.", winked, and walked away. My mom decided he was crazy, Kevin decided I owed him $5. I on the other hand, saw it as something more. I, personally, am a big believer in Karma. I also believe that the eyes are the window to the soul. I don't think he was a bum. I think he was a part of something bigger, part of the great design of things, if you know what I mean. It was some kind of Karmic Justice methinks. I think I inadvertantly did a right somewhere for someone and totally didn't realize it. It must have been something very recent, though. Everything has to even out. In trying to think of what could have caused it, I came up with a few possible solutions, the most feasible would have to be Saturday. When I was in Kay Bee Toys, I saw the one G.I. Joe two-pack I knew everyone wanted. I picked it up, but I didn't buy it. Twenty minutes later, Danny Enders went and found it. He's not a frequent shopper like me, so it was a big chance for him. Maybe my leaving it there for him to get was the good deed. Everything else I've done has been compensated for. I made Meghan so sad by going out with Ashley; she was in agony over it. On Saturday, after the movie, when I kissed Smashley, I felt her elation. She thanked me profusely for the "best day I've had in a while." I know how that is. She was really happy that night, and I was the reason. The joy counteracts the dispair. So all in all, I came out two bucks ahead. I'm very grateful. Thank you karma.

supercontonno: oh man, relationships with books are so good
supercontonno: they don't talk, and they just now how to stimulate your mind man

"Destroy that which is evil, so that which is good may flourish."
"We must always fear the wicked, but there is another kind of evil that we must fear the most, and that is the indifference of good men."
--The Boondock Saints

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 7:55 PM

Blogger,
The Magic-a-thon today was one of the best yet. In attendance were The brothers Casabona (Joseph and Phil) And Deadly Evans. We played a few rounds of one on one, and I went undefeated. A-thank you, a-thank you. I crushed joey like 4 times without batting an eye lash. Enders fell to the might of my swarm elf deck. Phil, after claiming he black deck was totally unbeatable, as it had never lost, got his head handed to him by a fourth turn Thorn Elemental courtesey of mana acceleration via Rofellos. Thanks for playing kids, now get the fuck out of my house. We did some trading too, and I totally came out on top. the only losses I took were Tidal Kraken and Day of the Dragons to Joey. I let them go because in return I got another Extraplanar Lens, an Elvish Soultiller, War Elemental, Akroma's Vengence, and some other gorgeous things. I got a Stifle from Phil which will be usefull in the future. Eater of Days, here I come. We watched Boondock Saints. It's one of the best movies ever. If you haven't seen it, go see it. To wind the long day down, we watched Family Guy and played some more Magic. I killed Danny again, after builing him a really really good green deck.

Sean4985: burke eagle= beagle its so much cooler then burkie

s m ASH 8198: im in the listen to as much music as possible its the weekend biatch mood

supercontonno: [IcE]-Cuttino-> while ur fucking a girl, ask her whos the boss? whos the boss? Then she'll say you are.. you are.. then u say no bitch.. Tony Danza is and punch her in the back of the head

In non-Magic news, Holy Freaking Crap. I swear, a live action Evangelion movie would rock the socks off the american people. I don't know if they're ready. Anycrap, I have lots of things to do, such as: redo all my decks, clean up the robot wreckage, and vaccuum my room. Rawr. Peace out.

And shepherds we shall be, for thee my lord for thee. Power hath decended forth from thy hand so our feet may swiftly carry out thy command. And we shall flow a river forth to thee and teeming with souls shall it ever be. In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti.

---Me
[Posted by Stephen] at 10:30 PM